I AM ARIF JOHARI.

morality.

2011-10-11T13:15:00.000-07:00

orang kata :

lagi berumur lagi geliga,

bukan lagi berumur akhlak tak ada!

-just saying-

this is story 2011

2011-10-06T13:43:00.000-07:00

okay 2.14am.

back to basics.

who, what am i going to bitch in this post.

1. bitching about my pathetic medical student life

okay, how does it feel when u honestly come to the class.. giving ur angelic face and without any intentions asking ur teacher a question that really matters and bugging ur head and then ur teacher misunderstood u and giving u a shitface and stating that ur question is just something to make your teacher looking idiotic?

that whats happen to me.. yeah. then one day i was like trying to ask some question and randomly she started to shout at me.. bla2x. saying that im too stupid to not know how to differentiate between a table and a chair. fuck u! im just asking!

needless to say, i am a pretty much a student my self. i know its a lame question if u cant answer just say it out loud. im not gonna test u or anything. gosh! then u did complain to another consultant about me being mr. know it all.

fuck! im not hermione granger who knows every goddamn spell in hogwarts. even she turns into a cat after drinking the polyjuice potion. fuck fuck! now im getting angry!

suddenly i felt like there is a negative charge around. For god sake!. stop being such a child!

u dont have to complain about anything. if u cant handle us students, just quit. dude, if u cant be a teacher just dont be one. i know my freaking coll can pay u thousand n thousand bucks for ur service but plzz if u cant carry on ur responsibilities as a teacher. dun be one and dun even think about getting one!!. coz only a true teacher can stand a very inquisitive student like. eventho its just a simple 1+1 question. im not stupid. i just need clarification.

and fuck u when said last time u were being a student there is no a/c.. what is the year now? 1988? its freakin 2011.. and if u dun want the a/c just switch it off.. no biggies.

im so freaking tired going to the hospital. now im not feeling of postings anymore. coz things like this made my attendance not worth.

i didnt learn a shit after that day. and i didnt ask any question henceforth.

coz i gave up on asking. no matter what she's gonna answer "GO BACK AND READ". fuck u! i need clarifications. if i didnt get one. might as well im not gonna pay u for teaching me. coz its not worth any penny.

2. bitching about men in this country and deo.

as some of the people notice that we really take care of ourself when it comes to smell good in front of the ppl. i just want to say one thing. sniff ur freaking armpit.? have u put some deo on it? man, i tell u how crazy ppl can be in this freaking country.

the smell like out of mind. u can be mind dead!. its too smelly, stinky it smells worse than a pot of rice which been left for 3 days. dude its super poop!

then one thing for sure. these men misunderstood the word deodorant.. its not freaking perfume.

you dont have to spray all the way "woooshing" to ur cloth in the toilet.

disgusting! yuck!. so u know what i mean.

i have to handle two kind of people here .

super stinks and over-deo men.

and i can say this to all women out there! dude wax much??

i must say.. girls nowadays are freaking weird!! they grow hairs at the wrong places!.

yuck!

enough bitching. got to continue to my freaking social and preventive medicine. exams and freaking weekend coming after!!.. and im starting to yawn!! fuck and yuck!

thus, im gonna type off now.

love u guys, later darlings.

xoxo

is it too much?

2011-04-22T12:48:00.000-07:00

its been long.

yes. im too rusty to write.

now i am out of my words!

time change. but i didnt

2010-10-24T03:06:00.000-07:00

for the past three weeks I've realised that something is changing

i am changing

physically yes. but I'm not talking about that since ppl will tell that i'll brag.

but no. i shall not brag about it

because the road ain't come to an end yet my darlings.

what i realise that i'm changing inside .

i've becoming the person i dont want to become again.

the horrible super emo super period bitch

i'll create another chapter of disaster in my life.

Oh God!. dun tell me its gonna happen again

its something inside of me that im really worried about

the moment i say yes.. u can enter my life.

then i'm not that person who can ha-ha all the time.

hmmm.. im kinda bit weird if i am committed to someone.

i mean commited as if i tak boley layan another person in my life!!!

it bothers me and it scares a shit out of me!

u know.. all the 'i need attention'.. i need that cuddle wuddle crap.

yup, i am that annoying kind of bitch

juz becoz i can give bits and pieces of heart easily.

yes.. I'm turning into a monster again.

i cant totally understand u

I'm too terrified to ask.

and seriously.

i dun want the viscous cycle to come again

and eat me deeply

i need a heart therapy

give me some electric shock or something

i need to realise. that this will never go anywhere.

i need to say stop and begone with it.

the more i indulge myself in this never ending hormones in my body.

i am actually committing suicide.

i can actually write about my fantasies

dreams and desires

it can be more fun but since this is a public declaration of emotions and thoughts.

i'll passed~.

peeps,

u can judge me. but u cant never change me.

im different from u people. u will never never understand.

opening up to people is not easy task to do.

if my life has been as white and clean cloth

i'll be happy

i've been brought up with many challenges.

i've been there. that black alley.

the alley that always haunt me for the rest of my life

but still i am different from others. *if u know what i mean*

i've tried my best even i went for so many therapies.

but yeah i've bornt with psycho-social problems that

i know it will eat me in the future.

even if i denied it. it will haunt me eternally.

trust me. the man u saw smiling happily is the man who always cries in the bathroom alone.

the man u saw jokes around. is the man who always being the guy who've been joked about.

people who knew me

they can talk.

but only me who knows the real story.

i have many friends to laugh.

to open up myself and be once not to be judged : NONE!

i've always open up to God!. talking to myself as if He besides me and heard me talking.

thanks to U, my Mighty God~ coz u'll always be there.

eventough people around me is non existance. ;(

i've become a realist to my life all this while

saying : its okay, not all people love u , like u. they laugh with me but can they cry with me.? hahah

saying : its okay Arif, no one will understand, u'll always be in the dark.

with tears rolling from my eyes. in front of the mirror.

once i've tried comitted suicide.

but that's a different story all together.

but yeah for now i am not me anymore.

now i dun want to wet this laptop anymore.

so shall i say : this is it for now?

yes . i'll be writing to u another time

till then~

tamak. it eats you like hell

2010-10-15T23:58:00.000-07:00

u guys pernah dgr citer anjing yang makan tulang tgk bayang bayang dalam air
pastu terjun nak amik tulang lagi satu sebab dia tamak kan.
so kesimpulan dia tamak selalu rugi??
cerita simple. pengajaran simple.
tapi susah nak practical.

kau tamak. aku pun tamak.
sapa yang tak nak kejar kekayaan.
yang kaya nak jadi lagi kaya.
dah ada benda ni tak cukup plak nak benda lain pulak.
makan kawan punya part.
sebab kau tamak.

its okay.
when u get some
u'll lose some.
i'll make sure u'll lose everything!.

hear this!

2010-10-15T11:28:00.000-07:00

world is easy to spell but hard to make it work

relationship which is not based on looks are totally bullshit

dun chew and spit. its a waste!

hypocrite is actually everybody best's friends.

dun think and say.just do it like Nike!

COMPLIMENT COMPLEX :P

2010-10-15T10:56:00.000-07:00

can positive compliments actually brings u down?
let say like this :
A : ye la kau memang pandai. boleh la dapat markah tinggi.
so how should u react to make sure that u're not offended
plus dun want to act snobbish.??
hmmm..
honestly, if i could run away from that conversation. i will.
sometime it strikes me.
is that a compliment or just a psychological attack?
to make sure that u'll feel great so that u become lazy then u ultimately fails.
if that is the case,
actually positive compliments are not all that great is it?
but then when u say how beautiful someone is.
are u actually really saying that?
or u just say to compliment for the sake of the person.
compliments can be something tricky and its hard to differentiate whether it is a compliment or rather i must say a 'perli' statement.
like this i supposed :
owh biasalah dia kan dah cantik
owh biasalah dia kan dah kaya.
like that. in front of ur face.

so what is compliment exactly?
the art of making all good things to self-destructed bombs.
or its just pure compliments.

i know i'm talking zero but yeah think about it.
does ur friend tell u what they really feel or they just say it for ur sake!
hehe

Day 6 and counting.

2010-08-18T08:36:00.001-07:00

Day 6 of Ramadhan.

Fasting in India.

such a thrill.

unproductive week i had.

too much sleep.

i guess.

come on. this is the time

to start the engine.

to drive to excellence!.

boh! i talked to myself again.

eh btw, u guys!!

last two days, i got a called from this super freak operator

asking me to be a member of Maverick again.

super freak!. she asked me and begged me to come there!!

i said no and yet she called me again the next day..

i said no and yet she called me again the very next day

that is today.

weird. am i not clear enough stating NO..

or they understand as "no"

ergh!!.. really piss me off.

but still im thinking of joining after September holidays!.

wow!!..hehehe..

p/s : MMBB is me - remember MOK MOK BLING BLING??

hehehe

i hope u'll be reading. :p

Amiga mia

2010-07-25T13:41:00.001-07:00

Amiga mia (my fren)..
By alejandro sanz.
True artist. True music.
Hmmm..
My fren,
What am I to you?
A person whom u can get stories?
A person whom u cared the least?
A person that annoys u the most?

Who am I to you?
Give it a moment and think.
A friend , partial friend , or an enemy.

Sensitive. Yes sometimes I am.
Sometimes I need a compliment from a fren altough I know ur lying.
coz sometimes it makes me happy.

Owh. I do write because I'm sad.
Because to talk to another shoulder means to create a scandal.
To create a gossip.
In this world. Yes! I have to be strong.

Sometimes some word can be bitter to my heart.
Owh..!! I just ran. and when I walked.. I felt embarassed!! I am not on that level yet.. The level tht I'm satisfied wth my self. Haih..

I need to take a deep breath. And let it go. I need to work more!! An insult is just another term for more hardwork!!

Go Arif.. manage urself. And be un beau garcon!!

Amiga mia, I promise that I never want to hear the same insult again. For that I have to work hard! I love u guys. Thanx for motivation!
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count what u eat!!!

2010-05-19T09:51:00.000-07:00

1g carbohydrates = 4 calories,

1g protein = 4 calories,

1g fat = 9 calories.

Dietary fiber is substracted from total carbohydrates as it is not fully absorbed.

so you are what u eat!!!

be careful..

i am now officially obsessed

2010-05-17T11:44:00.000-07:00

im obsessed with calories.
if my calculations are correct..
i have to eat only 1360 calories per day..
not more to make sure i lose weight..
hmmm..
i wanna be hot .
i wanna get my body toned down..
hahaha
get my high ups!!!

bulat boleh berputar tahu?

2010-04-18T12:30:00.000-07:00

mcm roda.

mcm tayar.

mcm bumi

mcm keropok super ring.

bulat..

boleh berputar tahu!.

tu jer la!

kau akan dibalas.

kau akan rasa apa yang aku rasa.

aku dah cuba lupa.

kau yang bukak cerita.

kau tak tahu apa.

kau bukan orang yang terlibat.

kau bukak kotak hitam aku,

sabar kau.

hari pembalasan kau akan tiba.

R u a chesspiece?

2010-04-10T13:01:00.001-07:00

Why should u choose medicine?
Why shouldn't u choose medicine?
Ur parents asked u to?
For the benefits of all human being?
For the sake of money and wealth?
Or is it the typical bravest answer : because I want to be a doctor.

If u are a chesspiece.. What are u?
Are u the pawn..who always being asked to do what other tells u to do?
Are u the castle. Who always see what lies ahead of u anf grab it..
Are u the bishop.who always see things differently..who moves discreetly in a pattern where it doesn't go straight
Are u the queen.. Who can move freely and who holds the greatest power on its hand.the freedom to go anywhere as it wishes..
Or a r u the KING, who is the golden one but still bears the highest liabilty to the chess board..poor KING!

Who are u in this chess piece?.. Have u check-mated anybody?..
Think again my dearest brothers and sisters..
Have u played ur game well?
CHECK MATE!
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SINGLES DILEMMA~

2010-03-29T21:00:00.000-07:00

i was talking to A last nite..

and something bothers me till i suddenly fall asleep thats for sure..

i was thinking..

why this sumone we want or like we cannot have..

but this sumone we dun want/not preferably our choice.. they can make you a fan page out of it.

i have this reaction sometimes.. but almost all the time.especially when i do the first move.then

we chat, we facebook message then when the question pops.. the reaction is basically negative..

but i have this quit a fan i would say.. this person wants to know me, to show me what love is.. not sex kinda thing. but i tend to say no just because i preferably dun like..yeah u know where u want just friends not more of it..

is it true that..

its doesnt matter who the person u love with..

but the person who loves u the most is the suitable person for u?

how about somebody who doesnt have any fans at all..

he/she ain't that lucky..

what he/she should do?

act of desperation??

committing love suicide??

if all is fair in love

why some people commit suicide if they were broken hearted?

if all is fair in love

why there is cheating and abusing?

if he/she is there for u..

why waste all the tears...

thinking about it.. makes me confuse.

by the way , if the act of making love is sacred.

why couples tend to have sex and then breakup..

then sex is not sacred anymore.

don't you think.

basically the point is : what should singles do? should they wait for someone to love him/her or should they join the vast mate-hunting..hmmm..

superficial

2010-03-29T05:02:00.000-07:00

i went shopping.

with a friend of mine , S

he said something that triggers my thought.

we look everything superficial.

we tend to fall for sumthing that is beautiful outside.

doesn't care whats inside.

are we all the same?

are we all superficial?

i mean yeah. who doesn't fall for sumthin or sumone beautiful.

its all about branding and marketing.and its the rule.

u can sell a 5 cents sugar for 50 cents just by branding it..

see.. whats inside.

ppl tend to overlook it.

ppl always say : tak per tak cantik asal hati mau baik.

and i will say bullshit!

yes.. who cant deny the kindness of heart or sumthing.

but one thing for sure.

if u put a beautiful model who is a dramaqueen and a not so beautiful who is kind neck to neck.

u tend to look the damn sexy dramaqueen.. of coz!

u know what i mean.

u can sell everything as long as it beautiful and attractive.

the point is.. are we that superficial?

Dreams and act to accomplish it..

2010-03-26T01:42:00.001-07:00

Y do we dream?
I dream of a great life
A beautiful partner
Independant
Awesome wedding.. 7 tier cake..
A dance that will sweep people attention..
Life that is freakin easy.. Get awesome pay..
A hummer and a mansion..
I wannabe a great socialite..
With fame and glamour.
Owh its too many.. But u know..
Can I make my dreams turning to reality.. Hahaha
What is ur dream?.
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Haih

2010-03-20T07:33:00.001-07:00

Hanya haih sahaja yang boleh aku katakan..
Keluhan.. Tak tahu nak ckp mcm maner.. Huhu..kalau aku luah nanti aku yang kena hambur..
Pendam..

Yup aku ada misi baru..
Misi untuk kurus.. Ye.. Aku tahu itu pasti berat..
Sekarang dalam permulaan..
Harap ini berterusan..
Laporan hari pertama :
Semua berjalan dgn lancar seperti yang dirancang..
Aku berlari..
Insya-Allah aku bertahan..
Aku nak mulakan misi tolak nasi..
Hmm..
Doakan aku berjaya ye rakan rakan..

P/s : yang atas tu tak payah peduli.. Biar aku pendam sampai letup.. Nanti kalau aku nak meletop aku kasik tahu..

Apapun aku tgh jeles dgn pelajar di mesia..hahaha..:p
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Yes.. I cry

2010-03-07T11:16:00.001-08:00

Yes.. My heart is simply crying..
I cannot bear the pain..
Mybe its just me..
Kenapa mcm ppl weird2x with me..
Exam mode ka?
I mean really.. Adui..
But then it hurt sumtimes..
To walk alone..
To get bck home alone
Seriusly I'm tired getting hold of myself..
Standing on the ground by myself..
It feels good to get to talk with someone..
It feels good to have someone taking care of me for a change..
Yes.. I'm a pain in the ass..
Tell me if I do so..
I have an annoying brain.. So.. Shouldn't I deserve someone to..
Haih.. The confession of a mere loner and the sound of a desperate person..
Count me in love!

P/s : this text is plainly thoughts and emotions.. Sorry if I get carried away..
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The thing about shoppin

2010-03-07T01:37:00.001-08:00

It is freakin addictive..
The impulse is very strong
I need to posa!!
Huaa mummy!!
Excessive shopping
Nasib baik pakai debit crd
Kalo crdit card aiyoh~
Need to learn
What is need and what is desire
Huhu
Or else.. No food in the end of the month..
But nay.. I think I can manage..
Huhu..
P/s : for some reason : I love shopping like madness..
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Ali.. Anakku yang hitam

2010-03-05T14:11:00.000-08:00

Haha.. Bongek!..
Saya ada kucing.Nama dia Ali.
Hulwan panggil dia Jimbo..
Dia manja dan nakal
Meow3x..
Demanding.. Pandai..
Geram giler kot..
Walaupun dia hitam dan buruk..
Saya tetap sayang Ali.
Orang kata dia buruk.. Tak sanggup nak tgk dia.. Tapi..
Bapak dia tak kisah..
I love Ali MUCHOS GRETAS

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perihal senyum

2010-02-08T10:13:00.000-08:00

aku senyum.

pin butang aku pun senyum.

kuning lagi.

menyerlah bukan.

anda terasa ingin tersenyum?

nah sekarang!

anda sudah tersenyum.

psikologi bukan?

pelik.

ada yang fikir lain.

ada yang kata saya ini budak2..

sebab pakai butang senyum itu.

kecewa saya.

namun betul juga kata lelaki bermisai hitam itu..

dia cuba perli namun aku tak faham.

sindiran dia jauh tersasar.

aku memang budak2

apa salah jadi budak budak?

apa hebat sangat dengan kedewasaan?

orang dewasa itu diukur dengan umur.

namun ada yang masih akal fikiran seperti budak 5 tahun.

ada yang masih muda

namun akal lebih matang dari ibu-bapa mereka.

aku suka jadi budak.

sebab aku budak aku tahu aku kena belajar.

sebab aku budak aku tahu aku akan selalu kena marah dan ditegur

sebab aku budak aku tahu hidup ini masih panjang.

jadi senyum kepada kehidupan yang bakal dipenuhi cabaran.

kalau aku dewasa,

orang harap banyak sangat.

aku tak mahu.

kalau aku dewasa

aku tak boleh terkinja-kinja

aku tak mahu

lelaki bermisai lebat itu,

agaknya fikiran beliau terlalu dewasa.

kata dia,

dia banyak tanggungjawab.

pergilah kamu menjadi dewasa.

aku tak mahu.

aku mahu jadi doktor yang masih berfikiran budak.

sebab aku budak

aku tetap ceria.

aku jatuh , aku nangis dan aku bangun balik.

kalau dewasa jatuh , nangis buat malu, orang ramai pun tambah ketawa.

betol tak?

jadi lelaki bermisai, jgn jatuh ye!

masalah.problemas!

2010-02-06T11:57:00.000-08:00

kita , manusia bukannya penilik nasib.

bukannya pandai menafsir masa hadapan.

kita merancang Tuhan menentukan.

kadang-kadang kita terjatuh, rebah lalu berdarah.

kita tidak tahu musibah yang akan melanda kita.

kawan saya pernah kata..

hidup ini ibarat roda.. kadang -kadang kita di atas..kadang-kadang kita dibawah..

saya setuju..

hidup tanpa dugaan mana ada cabaran.

mana rasa pedasnya.mana rasa manisnya.

namun.. ada seorang sahabat ini melalui dugaan yang amat besar.

kejadian yang dilaluinya memberi tamparan hebat baginya.

bertabahlah sahabat.

ini adalah ujian dari Tuhan.

Tuhan tidak memberi dugaan kepada sesiapa yang tidak mampu menanggungnya.

saya tumpang simpati.

dan saya harap sahabat ini dapat melaluinya dengan tenang.

semua orang mempunyai cabaran masing-masing.

saya bergelumang dengan masalah pelajaran.

ada yang mempunyai masalah kewangan.

ada yang mempunyai masalah perasaan.

macam-macam.

kerana itulah kehidupan.

permasalahan yang tidak tidak akan putus.

hanya masa dan ketika yang menentukan.

adakah ia akan selesai.

atau masih menjadi tanda tanya di dalam fikiran.

kompleks yang tak akan pernah saya faham :

aku.dia.awak.masalah.

ada penyelesaian?

SAYANG ITU MAKSUDNYA....

2010-02-05T11:37:00.000-08:00

orang cakap kita dengar.

kita dengar dan kita cuba fahamkan.

fahaman orang lain-lain.

kalau kita berbincang, kadang-kadang apa yang kita faham bercanggah.

lepas bercanggah.. benda yang tak sepatutnya jadi besar berkembang menjadi isu yang sangat hebat.

bodoh tak?

bukannya apa. orang bercerita kita faham dan kita senyap dan kita membuat pemerhatian.

bukan itu lebih mudah.

orang bercerita, kita tak faham, kita masuk campur, kita yang buat malu diri sendiri.

bukan kita yang terlibat tak gitu?

orang yang tak terlibat tak lah kecoh mana pon.

saya membuat pemerhatian.

kedua-dua pihak pun mempunyai kesalahan masing-masing.

yang bergaduh hilang kawan.

putus persahabatan.

suka? jawab sendiri.

Tuhan tak suka orang bertelagah..

betol tak?

cinta itu satu benda yang abstrak.

bagi saya. perkataan sayang itu mencetus reaksi yang pelbagai.

ada yang mengatakan sayang itu sudah cukup menaikkan nafsu.

ada yang merasakan sayang itu bukan cinta

ada yang merasakan sayang itu adalah perkara biasa.

ada yang merasakan perkataan sayang itu perlu disimpan bagi sesetengah orang untuk orang yang benar2 kita cinta.

perkataan yang boleh dianggap menjadi kekeliruan antara dua insan.

bodoh? tapi menarik.

saya pernah melaluinya.

saya yakin anda pernah melaluinya.

pernah diungkapkan sayang tetapi akhirnya semuanya adalah silap faham.

benar?

perasaan..

hanyalah reaksi didalam badan kita.

pheromon, endorphin.

cinta membuat kita gembira.

semuanya reaksi kimia didalam badan kita.

semuanya ada terletak di dalam otak kita.

percaya atau pun tidak.

semuanya sangat kompleks.!!

kenapa cinta itu menyebabkan pipi kita merah.. bak kata orang *blushing*

kenapa cinta itu menyebabkan jantung kita berdegup kencang..

komplekskan??

"saya sayang awak"

"i love u"

boleh memberikan seribu makna yang berbeza..

jadi berhati-hati sebelum mengungkap kata cinta ya?

oh..

memandangkan kolam renang bakal dipenuhi air..

saya katakan : saya cinta kolam renang itu!!

memandangkan duit mara saya dah masuk

saya katakan : saya sayang mara

p/s : bagi anda .. sayang itu bagaimana??

sebelas hb sebelas thn dua ribu sembilan.

2009-11-10T11:30:00.000-08:00

hello everyone

happy lately?? lets get happy!!

[gosh! i need to workout on my opening speech]

so, today is the date i should remember.

sebelas haribulan sebelas

today is the the last day.

today is the ' i must go and have teenagers fun' day.

becoz the day after tomorrow.

i'll be twenty.. marks my first anniversary of being twenty

years of life.

fuh!..the clock is ticking...tick tock tick tock!!

btw.. this is not the main point!..

actually i wanna wish my birthdays to :

1. my super ever lovely grandmama!!!..

selamat hari jadi nenek-ku!!!

semoga panjang umur murah rezeki.

i love u grand-mama!!

2.my best best friend in the whole wide world -

piyan!!!

semoga rambut kekal ayam selalu!!

muah2x.. i love u guys so much

3. my friends : Nabil and Akmal Hamzah [batang]

happy birthday u guys!!

batang and awek dia (dapat bb tu.woot~. [^_^] )

nabil a.k.a nana

and and and... the most important of all!!

HAPPY WEDDING ANNIVERSARY

MY MUM AND MY DAD!!

21 YEARS OF MARRIAGE AND STILL GOING ON!!

LOVE MUM AND DAD SO MUCH!!

MISSING U MUM AND DAD. A LOT!!

I PRAY U GUYS THE UPMOST HAPPINESS!!!

SUPER DUPER LOVE U MUM AND DAD!!

p/s : hadiah apa plak tahun ni??..hehehehe

its smooshy november!

2009-11-06T14:55:00.000-08:00

muach muach.

kiss kiss from joepuff

definitely the time to celebrate!

i am so uber freakin happy!!

but wait.

its story telling time.

1. i fell sick for a week.gastroenteritis.develop stomach pain with severe watery poopoo.

2. i develop an 'umbit2' at my left eye. and i hate it! i dun even watch porn.!urgh!

3. shit! this is 'the' month and i afraid of leavin teen world!! argh!!!

4. i am developing no mood symptoms with other ppl. i think other ppl are aliens and come to steal my laptop away!! no. u alien!! go away!!

5. bam bam is staring telling me to study but i have tonnes to do!

6. my room bersepah.this is because i'm sick. hating mr.chan chan very much i wanna punch him on his face really badly!

7. hating chan chan clan because he didn't deliver my home appliances yet!

8. happy with my new nano ipod 8gb.thanks sis azie!! u r so lovely!. seriously the earphones are weird to handle!

9. i just want to punch somebody and yell to somebody that 'kau tu bodoh,sial puk****k anjing!' with hand signals!.

10. i think i want to see some psychiatrist for my mental!! i am too crazy to be alive! plz sir have me electrocuted.

11. i developed auto-stress.i dun know what to do!.sleepin is now a favorite hobby.gettin up 5 minutes b4 the phone alarm makes me want to puke!.

12. btw, when i'm sick that day , i developed auto poopoo-ing into my pants. i hate to admit it but yeah i did!

13. i realised that red banana is much sweeter than the yellow banana. i tought that red banana are syrup banana.!! seriously!.

14. i think surgeons are hot [paris hilton way saying hot]! dun u think so??hehehe

15. i am freakin boring.i downloaded every new series i can think of.MP,EASTWICK,THE VAMPIRE DIARIES.PRIVATE PRACTICE.

16.i think novemberians are cuties,aren't they! shit! i talked to the mirror!

p/s : lets have some fun tomorrow!! will you. the end of teens world are drawing near.shit! i'm in age denial!!

vijaya.bodoh

2009-10-30T14:20:00.000-07:00

dah seminggu.

aku bank-in check.

tak clear2 lagi.

stupid shit la this ppl!!

so i went to the branch manager.

put some complaint.

and then they started to work.

i'm totally pissed off that time.

thinking,

what are they doing all this while.

okay.enough with babbling.

so, technically, they rang the head office.

ask for my cheque.

stupidly, they said that my cheque never been sent to the main office.

say what!!!

i ask for another confirmation,

becoz, from my side.

i did save my receipt of deposit.

so they talk in their own language,

heard some word 'malaysian student'.

more babbling and rubbish talk.

n then they said , they'll clear the cheque today.

i will get the money tomorrow.

i hope so~

or else.. i pancung kepala sorang2.

aduh!

so tomorrow i'll be skipping posting.

and head to the bank.

aiyoh..

so kering my pocket rite now..

p/s : i ate three maggi for dinner. OMG!!.. my brain-cells are dying!!

adik aku punya birthday.

2009-10-28T10:15:00.000-07:00

ini hari.

29 October 2009

tanda kelahiran adik aku.

yang ke-19

pergh.

dah 19 tahun.

tua gak tu.

aku?

dah nak masuk 18++

aish.muda lagi dowh.

Afiq,adikku.

perangai matang sungguh.

malu aku.

dush!

rindu dia dowh.

raya tak balik.

terasa dia takder.

aduh! sedih sama sekali.

sekarang.

dia di Indon.

belajar medic.

nak jadik doktor.

pergh!.bagos2x

teruskan usaha anda.

medic ini bukan senang.

perlu tabah dan bertawakal selalu pada-Nya.

mintak dan doa kepada-Nya.

moga dia memberkati kita.

Ilmu itu hak Tuhan yang Maha Esa.

Alhamdulillah,

kita diberi anugerah untuk menuntut ilmu perubatan.

Jaga diri.

Jaga makan.

Tepon ibu ayah ya.

Adik,

abang doa adik berjaya selalu.

balik cuti kita jumpa ya!

sayang adik selalu.

bodoh.sengal.

2009-10-20T10:31:00.000-07:00

diwali.apa yang hebat?.

bunyi mercun.

warna warni.

kepul-kepul asap.

dihiasi hilai tawa.

aku. macam biasa.

penyibuk.

orang bakar duit.

kita tumpang sekaki.

best.puas main mercun.

ala-ala lepas gian.

habis pose depan kamera.

bodoh.sengal.

itu memang aku.

aku buat kerja gila.

hanya dua orang aja yang tahu.

desperado betol.

aduh!! aku dah kalah lagi.

kalah pada perasaan.

bongok betul.

tampar saja aku.

bangun dari fantasi.

sedar dari mimpi.

hidup ini realiti.

dia dia.

aku aku.

dua makhluk berbeza.

bagaikan kutub magnet yang sama.

sajak ape aku tulis ni?

sengal. tapi kenyataan.

malam ini

aku masih dengan bam-bam.

berdua.

housemate tak tahu kemana.

apa kabarkah dia.

aduh!.

jangan kau lari sudah.

semalam hari jadi ikrey.

ramai yang smbut.

meriah sungguh.

habis telur pecah.

kena rambut.

suka. dan terus meriah.

koir untuk ikiey juga ada.

lagu hari jadi..

sedap suara kami.

hahahah~

semoga panjang umur.

murah rezeki.

Allah selamatkan kamu.ikiey.

apa-apa.

aku sibuk hari-hari.

perkataan posting sangat popular kala ini.

entah.excited mungkin.

hmm.

aku rajin.sekarang.

hingga esok dan terus esok hendak-Nya.

SENIOR.AKU.JUNIOR

2009-10-16T12:08:00.000-07:00

aku malu pada senior.tak.

aku takot pada senior.ya.

pernyataan yang bukan palsu.

setiap kali aku lalu Bashir.

nampak senior terus tunduk.

jalan cepat2.. sebab takot dengan senior.

yup.

aku memang takot dengan senior.

takot kena marah.

takot kena jerit.

trauma agaknya.

senior.

aku bukan sombong atau tidak mesra.

cuma aku takot pada senior.

takot.takot.dan takot.

kalo boleh nak tunduk. tak nak pandang.

aku rasa senior menggerunkan.

iya, sangat menggerunkan..

rasa takot itu ada.

sampai sekarang.

semalam,

beri tomyam pada En. Farid.

ada senior di situ.

'MAYDAY2X'

rasa mahu letak dan lari.

aku beri pada En. Farid.

berpaling dan lari kearah Auto.

malu.malu.dan malu.

takot.takot. dan terus takot.

kurang faham.macam mana rakan boleh rapat dengan senior.

inferiority aku tinggi!! lari Joe lari!!

aku tahu. sumer senior baik dan cool!!

tapi aku takot pada mereka.

dua minggu berlalu pergi.

ada junior datang.

baiklah.aku nak jadi senior yang baik.

beritahu apa yang patot dan tidak patot.

bagi itu ini.

aku bawa mereka merayau bandar.

bawa mereka beli barang rumah.

tawar menawar.

sumanya asing dan menjadi benda baru bagiku.

namun. sedih.

ada yang tidak menghargai.

bukan nak mengharap balasan atau apa.

aku pun tak nak orang belanja itu ini.

tapi tidak perlulah mendongak muka mengadap langit.

jangan sombong.

perjalanan korang masih panjang.

baru dua minggu.

dah berlagak macam dah habis tahun satu.

tak apa lah.

sombong dengan aku.

jangan berani tegur aku lagi.

sudah. malas benar mahu layan.

dah ada cikgu tuisyen

belajar je rajin2 ye..

make something useful from something stupid and pathetic

aku mmg kaki party

kaki joli.kaki hiburan.

tapi aku tahu aku study.

berperuk dalam bilik

bukan satu kaedah.

sekarang era.socializing.

the thing in 20th century

socializing.socializing.socializing.

u got that??

yang aku tahu,

senior.aku.junior

WHO DO U ADMIRE??

2009-10-10T11:39:00.000-07:00

who do u admire??
soklan prof community medicine kat student.
nak angkat tangan
ala2 hermione granger
tapi tiada rezeki mencapub
dia kasi itu microfon kat studenita (student wanita)
melepas aku..
studenita ni pon buat long essay
pasal dia admire siapa
tak pasal prof tu xplain..
sebab apa kita admire some person..
it is because...
WE SEE US IN THAT PERSON..
pergh~ tertanam sedalam liang lahad
kata2 dia..
ntah.. tapi com med hari itu menarik tertarik..
semoga 2nd yer menarik-menarik belaka..
hehehe

p/s : i admire sasha fierce!!

RAYA BAGI AKU DIA DAN MEREKA...

2009-10-01T08:41:00.000-07:00

post paling lewat sedunia

ah, asalkan masih lagi bulan syawal

tahun ini raya yang ke-20 bagi aku.

biasa. banyak ketawa. riang gembira.

sedih.adik tak balik dari indon akibat krisis orang disana.

jangan tanya kenapa. malas nak tahu sebabnya.

apa yang nak dicerita.

raya di johor bharu.

aku belajar cara nak masak rendang.

bulu kaki terbakar dan merah akibatnya.

penat mengacau macam nak pengsan.

mula2 semangat lepas tu cabut lari tgk tv.

kecian chef utama - bapaku mithali.

co-chef yang lain - tidor dan pergi merayau.

namaku dipekik bagaikan dipasar.

aduh. baru aku tahu seksanya rendang.

masak guna kawah yang cibai besarnya.

guna kayu api.

sungguh tradisional orang kampung.

kelakar sungguh kami.

dah siap sumer terus pengsan sampai nak dekat maghrib.

dah rasa patah tulang pon ada.

nasib baik bapaku penyabar orangnya.

bapaku ketawa pada kami sekalian.

dia kata ' tulah nak masak rendang pakai shorts, mana tak hangus bulu kaki!'

chaish, hampeh..

tidak kasik warning awal2..

hari raya.

takbir berkumandang.

sayu, adikku tiada.

namun raya tetap raya.

majlis mintak ampun dan maaf masih berjalan seperti biasa.

aku peluk cium bapaku dan ibuku.

rasa sayu lagi.

namun titis air mata tidak mengalir.

tidak tahu kenapa.

kurang dosa agaknya.hehehe

lepas itu keluar,

jumpa nenek. salam cium tangan.

jumpa pakcik makcik sepupu bagai.

dapat duit raya.

tahun ini tahun aku.

cabut duit raya dapat tempat kedua.

banyak juga kutipan aku.

yay!! bahagia rasanya.

sesi ambil gambar.

sayu lagi hati ini.

adikku tiada dalam sesi

bodoh punya indon.

raya la mangkuk!!

lepas tu naik atas pula.

jumpa nenek yang lagi satu.

peluk cium lagi. kalau dia lupa kena cakap lagi.

ulang dan ulang dan terus ulang.

dia sudah lupa.

takdir menjadi orang tua.

tengah hari raya.

terik betul suria.

projek ke kubur dimulakan.

menziarahi kubur moyang atuk dan pakngah.

mereka sudah meninggal.

membawa jambangan bunga dan air sejag.

kami dengan dua kereta berarak.

mengitip doa dan al-fatihah kepada yang tiada.

Ya-Allah Kau selamatkanlah mereka dari api neraka.

Petang dan malam raya.

berjalan mengerat silaturrahim.

dah penat balik..

mandi tidur!!

itulah raya kali ke-20 bagi aku bersama mereka.

tanpa adikku

sayu sayu dan terus sayu.

*sambil mengunyah kuih tart*

p/s : selamat hari raya bagi kamu semua. maaf zahir batin.

AFTER HALF MONTH OF PUASA AND TARAWIKH

2009-09-08T00:20:00.000-07:00

yup...

thats it people..

we are half way there..

to raya of course..

doesn't mean i didn't cherish ramadhan whatsoever..

but the 'dah nak raya mood' is coming.

its gonna be awesome!!

adeh..

whats up with me for these couple of days??..

yup.. my mood kinda turn on and off..

and yup!!

i am so in love!!

[crazier by taylor swift is always on my mind]

haha..

so last nite,

was having fun with all my besties..

triff, aizwan,kory

jumpa wani, ell and vaji..

those poland medical students.

so they share me all the gross stories..

p/s : taking medical courses is the gross-est thing ever on earth!! its true!!

btw..

am missing my frens kat skool dulu..

owh izni,

am sorry coz couldn't attend school..

having slightly demam.

and have to babysit somemore..

em..

so after one week of holiday,

am doing nothin but staying at home.

which is very pathetic and very boring.

i practically live in Kuala Lumpur FGS!!

bcoz am still anak dara pingitan

mak tak kasik keluar takot kena culik or rogol la kan..

so guys..

if i ever rejected u down..

it doesn't because don't want to.. its because i am the next anak dara pingitan solehah..

em.. so..

will be going to medan soon..

will be posting pictures after come back

but for the time being..

am enjoying myself practically in this square shapedroom

upstairs with mr.lappy and ms. headphones.

lol

so.. will be posting something new soon.

p/s : adeh, cam malas nak pg terawikh malam ni.. nak hujan la noxx

Aku tunduk pada-MU

2009-09-06T08:07:00.000-07:00

kadang-kadang manusia ini lupa pada pencipta-Nya..

kadang-kadang manusia ini lupa pada kuasa dan kudrat-Nya..

kadang-kadang aku lupa sujud pada-Nya..

Ya-Allah,

Tuhan yang menciptakanku

Tuhan yang menwujudkan kehidupan.

adakah aku akan mati didalam kemurkaan-Mu??

Tuhan, aku berdosa pada-MU

Ya-Allah,

aku rindu pada-Mu

aku rindu apa itu ketenangan.

aku keliru dimana dia kebahagian..

titis airmata ini tidak dapat menebus dosaku pada-MU

salah aku sebagai hamba yang lalai.

Ya-Allah,

adakah ramadhan in mengajar aku erti sabar dan tenang?

kalimah Bismillah cukup membuatkan hati ku bergoncang..

lantas air mata ini terus berlinang..

aku malu pada-MU

aku tahu aku belajar..

adakah takdirku adalah neraka-Mu??

Ya-Allah,

redha-Mu destinasiku

syurga-Mu impianku.

tunaikanlah Ya-Allah..

SAYA TIDAK BERMIMPI~

2009-09-02T08:47:00.000-07:00

everybody,its a wrap!!!

i finished my first year succesfully..

Alhamdulillah praise to our mighty God..

so.. i year has passed..

what did i learn??

anatomy.physiology.biochemistry.community medicine[doesn't last long,pranic healing stuffs]

do i love them??

i have.i must.i need to

so thats all bout my first..

and to all my friends that needs to take supplementary exams.

gambatte!!! i'm showing some support..

u can do it okay!!!

now.ramadhan.

what did i do?

sahur.sleep.buka posa.

[waste of time kan3x?]

thinking to do some useful things..

mengaji perhaps.

aduh~ menusuk jantungku..

now.kuala lumpur.

bertolak dari singapore ke jb.naik bus.

seksa.sesat.penat.

kena turun naik bas.

taxi mahal.

cekik darah.

dari jb ke kl naik bas jugak.

sejuk nak mampos.

batuk2.

huaa!!.. sampai pudu. kena serbu.

pakcik taxi di pagi hari.

sungguh takut kena ragut.

naik taxi pakcik tua.

banyak soal plak dia.

aduh!!

takutnya!!

sampai rumah 3 pagi

terus mandi sahur dan tidur lagi.

bangon pukul 4 petang.

terus adik pulang.

dari sekolah petang.

shit!! internet lembap.

aigoo~ coverage tak cekap. [curik line orang]

btw, perasaan sangat complicated.

ada sorunk ni.

saya mahu ngorat.

tapi dia milik orang.

saya sudah kata saya suka dia.

wah. beraninya saya.

tapi kami dua dunia berbeza.

tapi dia jatuh hati tak sama saya.

wah.. perasaan complicated menular lagi.

tadi jumpa dia [x-abg angkat]

kami bincang.

kami sepakat.

kami break-up.

saya sedih.dia sedih.

tapi ini untuk kamu juga.

kami tidak boleh jadi kawan.

dia tua. saya muda.

kami dua dunia berbeda.

dia seni.saya sains.

dunia yang tidak akan bergesel.

dia saya lepaskan.

tapi.saya cerita pada orang itu.

mahu lepaskan kesedihan.

kami chatting.

saya tulis.dia response.

tapi dia ym orang lain juga.

terasa diri ini tidak diberi perhatian.

bodoh juga rasa dalam hati.

mahu marah tapi...

tak apalah..

kesimpulannya.

i'm in malaysia.

having everything sorted out.

settle things. by arif johari way.

planning to meet long lost friends.

having fun with them.

btw?? is HOT magazine a taboo-like mags??

dun think so!!

it is just purely celebrity magazine rite..

having hot juicy stuffs and news. n also some cool posters.LOL

some school thinks that HOT is the next PLAYBOY mag!!

OMG!!. grown up ppl..

even HUGH HEFNER knows..

hahaha

so. conclusion.konklusi.

selamat berposa.dari arif di malaysia.

kepada encik bam2.

saya rindu kamu selalu.

jgn nakal2 disana.

number saya di malaysia terchenta

+60136464286

LIFE IS A HIGHWAY~ I'M ON THAT ROAD

2009-08-15T10:55:00.000-07:00

for the past few days..

worst thing happen to me..

i brokeup with my big bro [is the word breakup applicable in this kind of relationship]

haram kejadah betol!!!

i piss off

i cried and u want to know what i did..

(RAMBUT STREAK HONEY!!)

(RAMBUT HITAM)

i change my hair from honey streaks to adam lambert black hair..

effin shit!!!

this is kinda move i wanna make..

a better adjustment for a better future..

i think i wanna be significant again..

lol..

i am tryin to make up myself again..

ohho..

now i am tellin u..

who am i addicted to....

MILEY CYRUS!!

woot~

she's hot

dengar lagu ni u guys

SEND IT ON - miley,selena,demi,Jonas Bros..hehe..

HE WALKED AWAY~ JUST LIKE SNAP!!

2009-08-12T19:52:00.000-07:00

i wonder if its the right thing that happen to me.

.but he's leavin me period

.how should i react??

what should i do??

what should i say?

?tomorrow i have my own battle to win [physiology paper]

but still i have this emotional breakdown..

i still remember the first moment we met..its just purely us.talkin till morning

talkin bout everythin last year..and then we went out..u bought me somethin that i kept it always with me.can u just trust me..u've been like my brother..we share everything together..

when i wrote this,it is comin from my deepest heart..i cannot accept that

u leave me this way at this moment..y so sudden??

is it becoz u fond with someone new..someone that i knew who is such a jerk..

fine!! u go with ur new ADIK

cool eh?u wanna go with ur new adik kan..pg la..i let u go..but u just made my day went so wrong..u just broke my deepest heart..n plzz..i just want to forget u..i know its hard but i try..goodbye..my dearest brother..

one thing i wanna forget is GOODBYE.

ur ex-adik

arif joe

ARIGATO GOZAIMASU~

2009-08-02T05:38:00.000-07:00

terima kasih.. thank you..

merci beaucoup...

for everythin

to everyone..

who always be there

when its easy and its hard

in sunny or rainy days

coz u guys are, were and will be awesome for me forever..

i love it when we smile

i love it when we talk

i love it when we glide together every single day..

i love it when we like families.. rubbing ourself together

i love it when we fought over silly things..

i love it when we walk

i love it when everything is right..

i hate it when u backstab me

i hate it when u like someone else better than me

i hate it when i'm jealous

i hate it when i have to share u with someone else..

i hate it when u'r not there when i need u..

i hate it when somebody take u away..

u do the maths..

7 likes - 6 hates = 1 like

and 1 like is = i love it when every thing is right..

and i love u guys a lot..

i wanna send everybody a gift..

but i think the thoughts thats matter..

happy friendship day...

i love u...

LIFE... IT FREAKS ME OUT!!

2009-07-27T11:52:00.000-07:00

this is weird..

after one month without any posts or any notice..

i feel akward writing in my own blog....

lol.. it feels like i am writing a fiction essay..

but what the hell...

if ur thinking what happen after my last post..

this is the definite answer...

i dun give a damn u are actually stalking my life , douchebag..

coz i know who u are..

and obviously u dun what am i capable off..

okay.. now is time for me to shine..

for the past month ..

i was indulging myself into this tortured,tormented life of EXAMINATIONS..

exams..

who needs it..

its for bunch of people who can wrote well.. attract the examiner..

and booom!!!! an A+

but still i love examinations..

this is the moment of being selfish... ignorant and jealous..

the most important is..

EXAMS ARE SHIT CRAP..

the moment where some people eventually use their brain to think..

lol.. coz when there are no exams..

these bunch of shits messing with other ppl's life..

but eventually i pass my exams..

its tough and its pure dumb luck..

i supposed. [i'm not going to say i'm smart because it is too obvious and too vain]

and i didn't miss any excitement of HAIRY POKER and TRANSFORMERS..

and its kinda funny when i didn't sleep for one day in each subject examination..

and i am turning into a zombie in Michael Jackson [R.I.P] thriller..

owh.. i miss the days of freedom like today...

but now its two weeks before exam..

and i am making fool of myself..

or i was trying to be happy...

one send me a SMS..

saying :

HAPPINESS IS LIKE A PENIS..IT ALWAYS LOOKS SMALL IF U HOLD IT IN YOUR OWN HAND..BUT WHEN U LEARN TO SHARE IT.. U REALIZE HOW BIG IT GROWS..

its gross... but it is totally funny...

this sms crap..

so, ppl i would like u to be happy when i am happy..

hahahha..

so anyways.. gtg... my eyes are dying...

gudnite douchebags...

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE ME!!

2009-06-08T12:57:00.000-07:00

i wake up every morning..

hoping that my new day is the beginning of a new adventure..

but FUCK!!!

i'm under survaillance..

i don't know why but i am stuck in it..

i'm stuck in the box and cannot be as free as i am..

why suddenly people get jealous..

why suddenly people get nothing to do than bothering other people's business..

u son of a bitch!!!

just stop it.. i'm stressing out here...

i juz wondering..

what did u get for what u did to me...

u think this is funny??

what kind of person are u??

come on..

stand in front of me and tell me through my eyes..

u god damn bitch!!!

do u know that i'm not bind into any rules..

do u know that i just wanna live life..

just back off....

and get laid pal..

coz i think u need that flappy v*****!!!

i'm stress..

and i have tonnes of work to do..

i have my own relationship problem..

and unfortunately , breakin up is the easiest way to solve it..

u see.. being me is not easy..

if u can easily make my day much easier by not messing around with my life

thank u very much...

i am very grateful..

i wish u can stand in front of me..

tellin that u did this to me..

juz be honest.. lets talk...

and i want to the fuckin reason y!!!!

this 2 weeks in india..

is HELL.. and this is enough to me..

and i beg u to stop...

please... [i have tears now]

YOU DON'T WHAT IS LIKE TO BE ME...

U STUPID STUPID PERSON...

AND I AM SICK OF YOU!!

and i curse u from the day u were born!!!

(!_!)

CHRIS CROCKER EATS ROTI KAYA??

2009-05-27T08:44:00.000-07:00

hey readers...

anyway its been so long i tak update my blog..

ye la kan..

cuti2 di mesia..

so whats awesome now is.... [drumroll]

O.B.V.I.O.U.S.L.Y...

ME.MOI.I.MYSELF

anyway.. before the main topic itself..

i juz want to say ..

i love my besties and this week and last week..

juz made my week and my holidays

didn't go away like a waste can..

at least it is recycle-able..

like memories.. lalalalala [so much drama?? yucks!!!!]

anyway..

i have this new addiction..

CHRIS CROCKER..

do u know him??

the one who is truely Britney Spears fan..

the 0ne who shed tears with "LEAVE BRITNEY ALONE"..

well now u do.. coz i'm so gonna support his work on youtube!!!

love it...

and what i love the most is...

THE HAIRFLIP

[OMG!!! u guys have to watch it and its a must watch list!!!]

he is super funny... seriously..

anf he is like mother of all mother bitches..

and i mean it ladies!!! [with hairflip]

hahahahaha

and u know what??

u have to watch this oso..

FRED..

he is so cool..

he acts like a 6 years old kid

and he makes his own drama on youtube..

and i also have a second addiction

roti gardenia + butter + kaya..

i am so lovin it..

and most definitely

if the slice of bread toasted!!!

the crunchy-ness

the yummy-ness..

and obviously..

the more crunchy-crunchy..

the more yummy-yummy

and i eat this before i got to sleep..

i can finish one loaf of bread..[gardenia only]

and especially gardenia's kaya... [the green one yang ada gambar amoi kot.. tak ingat plak.. hehe]

oh.. me love livin the kuala lumpur -ian life..

and the most important of all..

MALAYSIA AIN'T SUCKS..

_______ SUCKS!!

and i am SICK of it

KUALA LUMPUR = DRUGS

2009-05-19T17:24:00.000-07:00

yes..

i am finally home..

the moment i step my foot

i juz love the smell..

the air and it sound..

very metropolitan..

lol..

and I LOVE IT..

many changes though ..

have new JUSCO at Keramat..

new highway.DUKE. [so can go to town effort-less]

soon to come..

i have my own TGV CINEMA in front of my home..

HOLY!!!!!!!

Wangsa Maju is the Next Bangsar and Damansara!!!

i spend my nite at OTWC..

i tasted Nasi Lemak Kampung Baru..

I went to Madam Kwon..

and i shop like hell..

this is the activity that i do for the past 3 days..

and I LOVE IT ALL

super cool .. super nice...

OMG!!!

i forgot to study..

Hell with BOOKS...

hehehe

i'm going for a brunch..

anyone??

i got my U pack number..

super cool super pack..

call me : 013-6464286

we can have fun though..

i'm free, liberated and jolted..

Hell with IV drugs..

Kuala Lumpur is the new drug...

and i am addicted to it

2009-05-02T10:19:00.000-07:00

HOME SWEET HOME.

by: Carrie Underwood

You Know I’m A Dreamer

But My Heart’s Of Gold

I Had To Run Away High

So I Wouldn’t Come Home Low

Just When Things Went Right

It Doesn’t Mean They Were Always Wrong

Just Take This Song

And You’ll Never Feel

Left All Alone
Take Me To Your Heart

Feel Me In Your Bones

Just One More Night

And I’m Comin’ Off This

Long & Winding Road
I’m On My WayWell, I’m On My Way

Home Sweet Home

Tonight, Tonight

I’m On My Way

Home Sweet Home
You Know That I Seem

To Make Romantic Dreams

Up In Lights, Fallin’ Off

The Silver Screen
My Hearts Like An Open Book

For The Whole World To Read

Sometimes Nothing

Keeps Me Together

At The Seams
I’m On My WayWell, I’m On My Way

Home Sweet HomeTonight, Tonight

I’m On My Way

Just Set Me Free

Home Sweet Home
Uhmmm, I’m On My Way, Yeah

I’m On My Way

Home Sweet Home
Yeah…, I’m On My Way

Just Set Me Free

Home Sweet Home.

p/s : Mummy, i'm going home by two weeks.. can't wait..

SUPER BLAST WEEKEND

2009-04-26T15:50:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOD..
I DID IT!! I ACTUALLY HAVE FUN THESE DAYS..
THANKS TO THEM..
I HAVE FUN THIS WEEKEND..
I ENJOY TILL THE END..
AND IN FACT I'M NOT SLEEPIN RITE NOW [4.20 AM]
PLAYING PRESIDENT TILL I BENGONG2..

OH.. WHAT A BLAST..
THE SLEEPOVER..
THE GAME..
THE DINNER..
THIS IS ALL HAPPEN WITHOUT THE ANY 'SECURITY CAMERA'
I CAN LAUGH AS MUCH AS I CAN..
I CAN FREELY TALK
BECAUSE I HATE ALL THE 'SECURITY CAMERA'..
ALL THE BAD TALK..
ALL THE TALK IF I AM SOMEONE WANNABE..
AND I AM FREE FROM THEM..
FUH..
THANKS GUYS

PEACE :P

CONGRATZ.. ITS YOUR LUCKY DAY..

2009-04-21T08:14:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

to :

manja khalisah [minah comot yng aku dah tak kenal dah.since kat india ni...]

and ogie [ teman wanita aq yang paling suwiqq]...

may u olz.. live happily ever after..

p/s : sorry tak 'dapat' raikan birthday u olz..

cumer ucapan jer..

PESANAN LEMAN KEPADA SENAH

2009-04-13T09:09:00.000-07:00

hello u guys..

ari ni leman nak bagi nasihat sket argh or peringatan..

kat anak2 dara /senah2 out there..

silalah hati- hati kalau keluar memalam okay..

jangan la keluar memalam sangat.. tak perlu pun tak per kot

bahaya tahu tak..

ingat pesan mak kamu sebelum fly ke sini..

kalo mak2 tahu anak2 dara keluar malam2..

mcm maner?

tak ke risau orang tua itu?

ha.. tak nak la

dah terhantuk baru nak terngadah..

nanti menyesal tak sudah..

ha.. kepada laki2 yang nak bawa anak2 dara orang tu keluar..

limit2kan lah masa yer

siang yang terang benderang tue pg la korank kemana nak pergi..

tapi kalo dah nak dekat senja,

tyme mak2 panggil "Senah , naik rumah cepat!! nak magrib dah n!!'

ha.. signal la tue..

cukup2 la

takkan nak melekat 24 jam kot..

kalo nak ..

pejabat kadi tue ader..

ngee :p

kita tak nak la anak2 dara ni dikacau,

itu aja..

malam equals to bahaya..

dok kot2 orang mabuk ker orang gila nak main jual beli anak dara orang ni camner?

"kitna that senah?" [contohnya la] kitna = berapa

tak takot ke u olz??

kalo mamat tue tak melwan tak per..

kalo dier sentap tangan ko senah.

tak nanye ko senai oi..

mintak simpang la senah oi!!!

kalo korunk kena kaco ngan mamat2 tak senonoh cmner plak?

kalau dah lepas, tak der masa nak menyesal lah ko senah

so.. fikir2 kan lah..

fikir la pamili kat mesia tuh..

mak kat mesia sure dok ingat " Senah sure dah tido.nyenyak agaknya.. mengalir liur lagi. "

walhal senah... [fill in the gap]

so.. jangan la kita mencontohi senah di atas yer..

kepada senah2 sila jaga diri anda..

antara tips yang boleh dikongsi bersama :

1. tak payah la nak kuar lepas pukul 10 tuh.. kedai dah tutup senah oi.. lapar? masak la senah oi!!!

2. keluar tue pagi2.. puas2 kuar ye senah...

3. keluar le ramai2 kalo ye nak berjalan kaki ke rumah kawan.. kot2 nak buat sleepover kan senah..

4. pepper spray tu senah jangan lupa tue..

5. kalo senah2 yang badan besar tue.. lindungi la senah2 yang kecik yer..

tu jer la

pesanan arif kepada anak2 dara sekalian..

ini perkara serius bukan main2..

jangan sampai hilang benda yang tak sepatutnya hilang

nanti mana nak letak muka ko senah..

malu orang tuo ko nanti..

pengajaran kepada senah2 sekalian..

jaga diri.. jaga keterampilan.. jaga2..

p/s : post ini sedikit harsh yer.. mintak le maap sesangat..

HIDONK..

2009-04-12T13:17:00.000-07:00

hey guys..
anyway baru habis histology punya assignment..
gosh.. agak banyak..
jenuh tangan nak melukis..

feelin very tired..
so masa tgh buat kerja histo ..
tgh ngantok2..

naufal ajar satu cara supaya nak segar n hilangkan sakit kepala..

ni sumer gara2..
lepas baca e-mel yang nopa dapat..
haha..

okie nak tau tak??
haa..cmni..

kalo sakit kepala..
tutup lubang hidong kanan guna jari and bernafas ikot lubang hidong kiri selama 5 minit..
nescaya, akan hilang sakit kepala..

kalo penat atau mengantok..
tutup lubang hidong sebelah kiri and bernafas ikot lubang hidong belah kanan.. selama 5 minit..

akitiviti ini sungguh menarik..
sila lah cuba..

ait2... ader lagi satu..
kalo rasa2 cam kalo bernafas tersekat tue..
sila la KOREK HIDONK TUE..
nescaya laluan udara bakal pulih..
hahahaha..

ini adalah teori yang disumbangkan oleh DR. nopa..
pape tanya dia di talian :
+919611841926

okie??

setakat itu sahajalah...

jangan bimbang.. tiada kesan sampingan..
tidak salah jika mencuba ye tak??

so.. selamat mencoba ye rakan2..

THE RACE...

2009-04-10T22:37:00.000-07:00

do u know the point that u realise u want to be a doctor?

how do i know i was meant to be a doctor?

what kind of doctor i should be?

sometimes this things occur in my head

and made me think and think and think..

seeing people who end up taking medicine because they supposed to be a doctor since his/her SPM or equivalent achievement is great.

and of course the wages of being a doctor..

is that y i choose medicine over law ??

or am i deceiving my self..

for the future job i dun want for the first place..

this is the moment i said :

" Oh God, i make a disaster mistake in my lyfe"

(mum, i'm sorry but this is now i think it is)

i am not being pessimist..

but i think i am realist person..

come on.. i cannot pursue this field

if i lack of interest..

but what if i choose law instead of medice?

does it make any difference?

sometimes i think ..

actually i did not decide what i am going to do with my life to begin with..

if i take law..

how can i be sure that i interested learning it?

how can i determine which course i anxious with?

silly me.. having this poor judgement

after almost half a year course of medicine..

now i am stuck with it..

for the rest of my life..

now the route i take is medicine..

there is no way of turning back..

to begin with, i am now in the state of giving up..

but when i called my mum

she said : abang boleh buat.. percaya cakap ibu..

i cried!!.. coz i think i make my life such a blunder..

now i think i wanna be serious in studies..

having said that..

i am inspired by my mom and i wanna be like her..

not same but more..

i have my own target now..

is to be a doctor with specialisation..

now i have to achieve to be general practitioner..

i have the route in front of me..

friends and foes,

lets finish the race that we started when we chose to do medicine..

if u being tired..

remember there is always friend and lend u a hand..

if u fell.

doesn't mean u lose..

stand up and run again..

until we actually arrived at the finish line

TOGETHER!!

PASAR MALAM : AKU RINDU.

2009-04-08T11:18:00.000-07:00

Ibu : Malas masak la malam ni. nak makan apa ek??
Arif dan adik-adik : beli kat pasar malam jer la...

Wah, rindunya...
setiap malam jumaat or malam ahad..
sure punya la buat kunjungan teristimewa ke pasar malam..
sri rampai punya pasar malam
or pasar malam tmn melawati...
pergh.. best giler..
and superb punya..
rindu pe tau??

makanan seperti keropok lekor , mee sop , laksa .. YONG TAU FOO..
minuman pasar malam : air kelapa, SOYA.. TAU FOO FA...
beli gula- gula, keropok , POP CORN yang manis giler .

waaaa... terliur!!!!

kalo bosan2.. beli DVD cetak rompak..
Amaran : Membeli Barangan Cetak Rompak boleh DIDAKWA okeyh..
tapi TAK KISAH LA...
wakakakaka..
P/s : malas nak download okay.. penat tunggu je tau!!

owh pasar malam!!!....
Super DupEr cool!!!

9th April 2009

U ARE GETTIN OLDER BY ONE YEAR, ABDUL FATAH!!

2009-04-08T06:11:00.000-07:00

"selamat hari jadi...

selamat hari jadi..

selamat hari jadi , fatah

selamat hari jadi...!!"

p/s : be wiser and cheer up okay..

juz like u say.. "single rules!!"

anyway.. bunga bukan sekuntum...

madu bukan setitis..

the perfect will appear eventually..

dont rush okay..

juz relax..

be happy..!!

8th April 2009..

another p/s : u should start considering BotoX.. hahahha

selamat ulang tahun sayang

2009-04-01T05:27:00.000-07:00

Yang tulus ikhlas
Ingin sekali sekala dirinya dibalas
Walau hanya dengan dakapan di angin lalu

Yang selalu memberi
Ingin sekali sekala jadi penerima
Cukup dengan salam dan manis doa

Prechorus:

Aku ingin kau merasakan hebatnya cinta
Dan leburkan saja serpihan calar derita

Chorus

Selamat ulang tahun sayang
Kini kau bersayap, pergilah terbang
Rentaslah langit cita cita mu
Harap nanti kita ‘kan bertemu

Selamat ulang tahun sayang
Janganlah engkau tak terbang pulang
Ku nanti penuh kerinduan
Selamat tinggal, selamat jalan

(Strings Bridge)

Prechorus

Aku hanya inginkan engkau setia
Kerana setia yang mencipta bahagiamu

Chorus

to : the one that i love the most..

where ever u are...

that's it!!!

2009-03-27T14:24:00.000-07:00

betol cakap ikiey..
blog ini memang KISAH -KISAH SAMPAH..
sebab apa yang berlaku kat diri arif ..
adalah cebisan2 sampah yang perlu dibuang..
sebab apa sampah..
kenapa bukan benda lain..
pernah tak ikrey cuba tulis nota atau mesej kat atas kertas .. something yang ikiey betol2 nak cakap kat seseorang .. n then lepas ikiey tulis .. ikiey tak sanggup dan ikiey gumpal dan buang..
maka kertas itu telah jadi sampah..
dan mesej itu pun tak sampai..
dan apa yang arif tulis ini semuanya adalah kertas-kertas sampah yang arif gumpal dan buang..
sebab arif tak sanggup..
mungkin ini cara arif berterus terang..
kalau inilah plastik .. maka benarlah itu arif johari..
arif nak kata arif sedih sebab nenek arif kaki dier kene potong..
arif nak kata arif dah tak sanggup nak amik medic

arif nak kata yang arif marah dekat kwan2 arif..
sudahlah.. yang berlalu biar berlalu.. kamu tahu apa yang kamu lakukan
arif tiada kuasa lain sudah..
maafkan arif ya rakan...
itu lah yang terbuku..
jikalau arif mengonkong kamu.. mintak maaf.. mintak maaf banyak2..
korang dah besar panjang..
fikir la apa yang terbaik..
mungkin ini telah memberikan parut kekal terhadap persahabatan ini...

Assalamualaikum

-arif johari-

sedih la~

2009-03-20T00:34:00.000-07:00

masa kecik2 dulu..

arif suka sgt amik air botol kat kedai nenek~

nenek ingat tak??

masa kecik2 dulu..

nenek suka bagi arif makan jajan...(jajan = twisties atau yang sama famili dengannya)

nenek ingat tak??

tapi sumer tue macam kejap jer nenek..

lepas nenek jatuh kat umah..

nenek tak ley nak jalan dah..

lepas tue kedai dah tak der..

pastu pak ngah meninggal...

sumer berlaku scara sekejap..

arif sedih sangat..

pastu dengan apa yang berlaku dahulu..

sekarang ni...

kaki nenek kene potong..

semenjak itu .. nenek tak nak makan..minum..

Ya Allah..

banyaknya penderitaan nenek..

arif sedih..

rindu kat nenek..

tunggu arif balik ye nek~

nenek makan yer...

luv

-arif johari-

I Am FrEaKIn HOt!!!!

2009-03-06T03:34:00.000-08:00

hello u olz..
ni bukan post nak melahar..
atau nak menyekit...
tapi memang memang CUACA kat INDIA ni meLAVA-LAVA...
pe lagi u olz..
panas sangat..
tak tahan..
pening kepala..

p/s : i still maintain wangi u olz...

u olz??
angkat ketiak bau sendiri..
ngeh3x..

ye la u olz
cuaca panas kan..
sudah tentu sweat gland serta sebaceous gland mengeluarkan cecair..
hahaha..
namun risau juga hati ini..
takut kulit ini akan digelapkan..
oh matahari..
kurang sikit panas mu itu..

p/s : nak tahu lebih lanjut.. baca thin skin.. kot2 keluar practical next week...

hahah.
anyway.
theory exam memang panas..
sangat sakit ati ngan soklan anatomy..
dalam banyak2 organ yang besar dalam badan manusia ni..
tu.. LIDAH yang keluar..
bertikam menikam lidah..
waaa....
Physio n BioChem??
em.. biasalah..
NO cOmmeNT..

haha..tapi yang besh dapat makan KFC yang besh..
hahaha
ketol2 ayam..
ngeh3x [dah gemok]
uwaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway regarding my last blog post..
i am missing my family..
waaaa
huhu..

for now..
signing off..
-arif johari-

surat untuk ayah dan ibu~

2009-03-04T08:31:00.000-08:00

Kehadapan ayah dan ibu yang abang amat sayangi

Assalamualaikum,

ayah dan ibu sihat?

abg rindu sangat dengan ayah dan ibu..

ibu - ayah..

abg mintak maaf sebab semenjak abgkat india ni dah banyak abg buang masa dengan enjoy..

abg lupa janji abg dengan ayah dan ibu nak belajar sungguh

nak jadi doktor..

tapi kali ni exam ntah kemana buku entah kemana..

hmm..

baru-baru ni peksa..

susah..

takot fail jer ..

anatomy, physiology..

ari jumaat ni biochem..

lagilah..

satu kitaran pun tak hafal lagi..

em..

banyak nak kena hafal!!!

tension jugak rasanya..

dalam hati rasa cam dah nak give up je medicine ni..

tapi ibu kata jiwa kene kuat..

banyak lagi nak tempuh dalam masa 5 tahun ni..

tapi ibu.. kdang-kdang abang rasa lemah sangt..

rasa cam dah banyak sangat pulak

rasa susah pulak medic ni..

mcm maner ibu dapat jadi doktor ..

memang abg tabik..

rupanya susah juga jadi doktor ni..

em..

exam yang ke-tiga adalah pada hari jumaat..

memang rasa jauh lagi tempoh nak stadi tapi..

kejap sangat hari berlalu..

entah la.. mungkin sebab banyak tak cover lagi kot..

jadi sampai disini shaja lah ..

warkah abang buat ibu dan ayah..

yang penting abang rindu one family..

wahai bulan 5, cepat lah smpai...

dari anakmu di india..

-arif johari-

Rub-ish story

2009-02-14T08:48:00.000-08:00

been through a lot..
busy week..
hectic schedule..
last week friday - red party
awesome..
partners in crime - me n fatah
ain datang .. cool giler..
em.. so my life...
i'm feeling okay...
nothin much..
besides us is no longer us
but i , u , and her phase..
everythings changing..
but its cool..
separation make us miss someone..
like bobo said to me.
life must go on..
we must let go..
and as far as i am concern.
i manage to do that..
but still i celebrate V day with them..
eventough w/o them..
just memories intact..
they are happy..
now they have their loved ones..
they have the biggest smile..
and i am happy for it..
and one more advice...
dun worry for me..
because..

and always remember..

haha..
as for this post..
i am hoping if..

and u know what guys..
thanks for everything..

let me be ur pit stop if u want to rest..
let me be ur shoulder to cry on..

and i will always be with u..

forever..

happiness - doin nothin but VICTORIA SECRET

2009-02-04T12:00:00.000-08:00

after i got back from shoppin at mathikere..
for this friday purposes..
i went to his room..
n then i just notice there is a file..
in his computer desktop..
wasn't sure of what is VS box set full is..
i open..
and walla..
the collection of Victoria's Secret Fashion Show 2007 and 2008..
i was like so happy and just take a copy of it..
and i watched it..
so cool..
love angels
waaaa... miranda kerr.. alexandra ambrossio.. ADRIANNA LIMA..
my god... its so cool..
wanna have a glimpse of it..
take a look of this pictures..
totally cool but what i think is ..
i just loved collection 2006 and 2007..
rather than 2008..
but still this is cool..
and unfortunately..
i have to leave my new best fren.. Guyton n Chaurasia..
for some great lingirie..
wakaka...

adriana lima (2008)

miranda kerr (2007)

anyway.. cannot put too much of pictures
its way too explicit..
hahaha..
i am so in love with fashion shows..
especially this type
and Fashion Rocks..
wanna have that box set too..
lalala~

p/s : i know posting this picture will not make anybody in ease..
but i totally love the show..and anyway this is my blog.. and i love it..

kiss from angel
-arif johari-

Nek Tik telah pergi ~ AL-FATIHAH

2009-01-17T10:11:00.000-08:00

wahai Tuhan yang mencipta kehidupan dan kematian..

hanya Kamu yang mengetahui apa yang berlaku dan apa yang terjadi..

maka.. adalah dengan kuasa Kamu, Tuhan yang Esa..

memanggil kembali moyangku kembali ke pangkuan-Mu..

sebanyak mana aku sedih..

Nek Tik tetap telah pergi..

aku redha Tuhan..

Semoga beliau damai disamping-Mu..

Ku panjatkan Al-Fatihah buatmu..

agar kamu tenang disana..

Tuhan,

Aku berharap agar kamu memberi petunjuk padaku..

dan memberi aku kekuatan..

sesungguhnya .. hambamu ini seorang perantau...

dan gigih mencari ilmu..

Nek Ti..

akan ku ingat segala pesananmu..

bagaimana kamu mengajarku erti kehidupan..

Semoga Tuhan merahmati-Mu

-Al-Fatihah-

friday nite.. me.. and the other boleyn girl.. and sum up my weekdays

2009-01-16T23:23:00.000-08:00

nite.. friday nite..
today is saturday..
yet another day...
last nite.. boring..
but i managed to watch movies..
from hindustan to english..
ohoo.. but i am totally stuck with this movie..
THE OTHER BOLEYN GIRL..

love the story line..
love the essence of history..
love scarlett, natalie and ERIC BANA..

and there was it..

the magic happen..

i am alive again..

this week..

many things happen..

i know that i must live on my own..

my father was sick and he is on recovery

and should be okay..

but one thing is..

the thing i fear the most actually happening in front of my eye..

best frens walks away..

i must understand that my life must go on..

evntough it means to let them go..

we are best frens..

nothin gonna change that..

sometimes i feel stupid..

i have must annoyed them so much..

with my petty problems.

owh... i am so sorry..

will not do next time..

and someone who had changed my life of my best fren..

take care of her..

i hate u becoz u take her when i am in need of frens..

when i come to comunity medicine.

just to hang out with my best fren

coz it seems that i rarely spend time with her

but its okay..

u took her away..

when i want to have dinner with my 2 best fren..

u took one of them..

its fair..

i guess nothin can be done..

u just take care of her..

have fun..

but i will remember this picture together..

us three..

when there are nobody else..

just us..

i love u guys [azura and dila]

13 JAN 2009 = BAD FENG SHUI

2009-01-13T09:43:00.000-08:00

p/s : todays event is one of the most excruciating part of my life...

so to begin with..

13 january 2009..

the ordinary day that become the worst day of my life..

the painful event to starts in 2009..

it begins with i woke up late for school* (obviously)

going for class, fighting with the auto guys* (normal routine)

when i was entering the class..

the biochemistry class has just started..

owh F$%K..

i'm l8e..

n then.. after biochemistry..

physiology..

ahha.. its my moment ever..

i am the VVIP of the class..

labelled as "matrix number 144"

i was called by the most fierce - DR. SURESH..

for my assignments..

ohhoo..

i am not a child anymore plzzz...

[cut to the chase]

lab biochemistry..

i was called once again with my own label

'144!!'

juz becoz i didn't wrote the procedure of the experiment..

ohoo..

n then...

i had this fight with this travel agent..

i booked my ticket for my malaysia trip this may..

n then this fuckin travel agent

says that the price will be increase

he can't ordered the ticket juz becoz his credit card was off limit

what kind a lame reason is that..

owh.. i'm so freakin piss..

n then.. come this big news...

my brother called me from malaysia..

he said ' abng , sabar tau'

with his monotonous voice...

i am so scared..

n then he said ' ayah masuk hospital bang, ayah kat ICU'

i was totally shocked n juz sat

crying like hell..

cryin with more tears than i ever cried b4..

this is not my happy day..

i am so stressed out..

i can't study..

but i wanna give credits to nurul nadhira adila ..

for being beside me..

today..

but guys..

i am very sad..

and very emotional...

one lil help from u guys..

juz pray for my father wellness..

theres nothin for me to say now..

i juz wish that i'll be in malaysia..

now and see my dad..

but responsibilities stucked me here..

for my 5 years journey...

but one think i wanna say ..

" Ayah.. abang sayang ayah"

" Ayah cepat sembuh eh?"

" Bulan 5 abang balik"

" AYAH.. abang sayang ayah sangat"

" Ayah... abang akan doakan ayah cepat sembuh"

~ Amin~

p/s : for my friends .. juz pray for my father wellness..

aprons up!!!

2009-01-11T05:17:00.000-08:00

eye cry

2009-01-07T09:15:00.001-08:00

yup.. i cried..

for sumthing..

becoz of someone..

at that place and that time..

i cried..

tears on keyboards..

and it types..

my story..

and i still cry..

and cry

and tears

and more tears..

sadness , sorrow

angry and mad

....

i am not okay..

for now..

for tonite

for today

and we will see if its tomorrow

but i - eye cry

ppl!!! dun just grow wrinkles .. mentally matured plzzz

2009-01-07T04:55:00.000-08:00

ever heard the phrase 'grow older'..
well.. welcome to 2009 everyone..
the year where we become 20-ish..
not the 10-ish anymore..
the yeat where we will start to grow wrinkles!!
i need botox!!!
anyway.. that phrase doesn't imply to some ppl..
i am so frustated..
they tend to be in the closet..
i mean.. they are so closed minded..
owh F!!
i dun want to save my words anyway..
someppl are so fucking unbelivable..
MENANGIS DI PERSIMPANGAN ORANG LAIN..
thats one thing..
another thing is..
someppl are being fucking judgmental to others life..
and another is ..
they r so fucking into themselves..
owh plzzz..
u r not living among urselfs..
hello..
socialize..
urgh....
and something that i was so furious..
they make my bestfriend cry
that is not something that i can accept..
comeon..
grow older..
besides physically...
pussies.... plzz be mentally matured..
and ppl..
we didn't tolerate ppl with close minded with botox..
coz it is a waste..
urgh..
u all are like [spit]

super 'alcohol' activity

2008-12-12T06:38:00.000-08:00

i am me...
i am crazy..
i dun drink ..
i juz do what i feel and i wanted to do so...
so what did i do..

i went for a sleepover at the hotel..
super cool??
way to cool..
that nite i stressed out..
so havin this major break
i pergi and have a nite at this hotel at Residency ROAD
mind u..
i tido kat the gateway hotel

n then i spend my nite ..
wandering and doing what i like the most..
eating ice-cream and watching movie..
the coolest thing is..
i went for a swim the next morning
after havin a superb buffet brunch..
isn't that great..

i went fo shopping
and i got a new brother angkat..
he is super cute..
super gorgeous..
and he bought me something on our first meet..
haha.. super cool rite..
we dinner at Kobe ( garuda)
and i went back home..

super crazy??
its alcoholic..
haha

teardrops

2008-12-04T05:17:00.000-08:00

after reciting yassin and reading Qoran,
suddenly i cried heavily....
suddenly i feel very tired...
i miss ibu , ayah, afiq, azim , alya , asha...
i miss Mak, maksu and everyone...
suddenly i feel that i can't take this anymore..
any emotion encounters...
anything that make me feel this couple of days..
i want to be like me again..
i was distracted.
from being socially something...
suddenly i feel i am socially zero..
n yet i cried..
i miz everyone..
i wanted to sleep on my mums lap...
i miz her so much..
she understands me a lot...
i wanted to talk with ayah...
i miz them both..
i miz afiq's company
i miz azim's sarcastic words
i miz alya's sempoi-ness
i miz asha for her cuteness
i miz them..
still in tears
-Arif johari-

shit~!!

2008-12-03T18:04:00.000-08:00

baru bangun tido nieyh...
secara mengejut n tetibe my feet cramp...
secara hebatnya...
sangat sakit...
n i think walking is nothin but pain and pain ..
berdenyut..
huhu...
dah la ader lecture..
i want my mum...
mummy....
sakit kaki!!!!

used = trashed

2008-12-03T10:46:00.000-08:00

to whom it may concern..

i mean anyone who actually boleh terasa dengan my post kali ini...

just to remind u olz..

that.... [drum roll]

i am not a communicating agent or synonymly to it..

i didn't sign for match making agency..

so don't just be friends with me just to get to know a particular person..

a'aaa!!

i heard rumours like this

'ala, aku kawan ngan arep joe coz aku nak kenal dengan [fill in the gap] '

em.. true?? and fuck!! what kinda statement is that??

u tell me though...

and anyway.. i kinda noticed...

when this 'homo sapien' get to know other same mannered species..

HS (respectively) disowned me..

hello, i am not ur pantyliner...

yang boleh pakai buang...

so, i kinda pissed off..

like twice today!!!

i feel like trashing my computer into HS mouth..

now what??

i'm totally history??

fuck!!!

coz u are..

and will be HISTORY!!!

and u know what..

i can't sleep tonite after hearing this WONDERFUL STORY

and u know what..

F to ppl who get through me for another person

F to ppl who are hypocrites and bajet caring...

F to ppl who likes to act INTERNET..

F to ppl who actually F annoying...

F to ppl who actually jealous of me..

and u know what F u, who used other ppl for other reason..

and F backstabbers and secret leakers...

and i'm sorry..

u r TRASHED!!!

-Arif Johari-

broken

2008-12-03T05:26:00.000-08:00

have u feel like ur bestfren is been taken away??

i feel it now..

and i felt nothing for this couple of days...

suddenly i feel scared , jealous , anger

hmmm....

i dun know..

maybe it is just becoz of me..

jealous .. yada3x [stupid feeling]

or it is really come true..

they will go away...

i mean.. i really want to feel the 'whatever' feeling but i can't...

what i think is..

there is no 'us' anymore..

best frens forever is just a label i guess..

and anyway..

congratulations..

to whom it may concern..

u took my best fren anyway..

eventough i feel sad bout it..

eventough i wanted to shout out loud..

how angry i am..

who am i to judge u..

u have the skill..

and obviously u manage to do it...

whether u realise it or not...

i feel mad bout it..

but what can i do more..

my best frens tried to protect my feelings..

and yet...

hmmmmmm.....

its okay..

u can have my bffs..

evntough it is hard to do...

and i feel lonely again and again and again....

untill my new bff that stays forever... [ btw both of u are still my bff anyway]

i mean.. now we are not permeable as we are yesterdays..

and i think i'm hurt untill the point i want to crush my laptop and my phone!!!

hey !!! i dun blame my bff or to whom it may concern...

i juz feel this way okay!! and its normal!!!

the way to distract my feelings is with writing..[temporarily]

but its okay...

want to cocentrate to first IA tough...

altough it is tough thing to do..

can't sort out my feelings..

want to go somewhere far and alone..

sort out my feelings again..

hmmm...

so life shattered and i'm stuck in India..

for God Knows How Long..

feeling alone...

and broken..

Barista adventure

2008-11-26T10:05:00.000-08:00

i wanna tell u all a story ..

the story that i will never forget..

because it happens tonight, this 26th Novembre 2008

so.. this morning..

i asked my bbfs.. 'jom study sama nak malam ni??'

n then they said 'okay, cool, barista jom??'

n then i replied OK la ..

so 6.30 pm.. we got out and head to Casino first.. havin dinner

[the shavarma roll is so nice btw]

skip this boring yada3 part ..

as usual gossips and stuffs..

study sket??...[leh cayer ker??]

n then afte bayar2 sumer..

we headed to Barista la.. for study .. OF COURSE!!..

n then i switched on my lap-T

my bff sorang gayut

my bff sorunk lagi study..

n then we ordered coffee la..

n then..

maser tgh2 study..

me n bff snap pictures yang kononnyer ader milk stain kat mulut tue..

[ala2 ANTM S3]

n then when we wanted to switch person who gonna snap those pics..

suddenly the coffee slip and tumpah..

n kene habis satu buku and nearly to my lap-T..

huhu.. that is the sad part of the night..

it was so teribble...

[so clumsy of me!!]

n then..

after study2 untill 10.50 pm..

we decided to WALK HOME!!..

we actually used the ramaiah back road..

and we nearly lost..

and the cool thing is..

WE STUDIED ANATOMY ALONG THE WAY!!!..

we asked the people for directions..

and one of the cool part is..

we have to cross one road that is so dark

full of cows and DOGS..

mind u!! they look carnivorous,,

and one of the dog is tempang..

and we are so afraid..

[ i am afraid of dogs!!! ye la!! nanti kene sawan anjing]

and we crossed the weird alley..

and the road in india ..

almost look the same..

CONFUSING!!..

so we headed to mathikere bus stop and then..

this one auto driver..

offer us a ride..

he said ' 30 rupees'

we said 'no, we're going to walk'

and then he said '20 rupees'

we replied 'no' again..

and then he drove for a short distance and stopped..

he offered 'its okay.. free ride' [ in his language.. and i just understand the word 'FREE'..]

its a free ride.. so theres nothing to lose..

so we hop untill infront of the Nandesh junction..

so we walked till and nandesh..

sayin goodbyes..

and then i walked ALONE home..

sad2 me..

the most teriffied thing happened..

the train was coming and i cannot crossed the railway..

while i'm waitin for the the moving train to pass..

the dogs stares at me..

scary kan..

so after the railway gate opens..

i ran like hell..

[ya la!! dah la sorang2, kalo ader bodyguard takper jugak.. ish]

so tonight is adventerous..

dun u think??

walkin from BEL road to GRAPESVIEW Apartment..

cool!!

hahaha..

a word of advice..

be carefull with 'landmines'..

whether it is from cows or dogs!!

hehe

p/s : i am so loving my bffs..

and one more thing guys..

we can be free and adventerous if we are single!!!

yeah!!!!

Love = Arif ?? weird formulae

2008-11-24T06:19:00.000-08:00

hey u guys..

i think i'm in love ..

seriously.. ya.. totally

with her..

she is totally sweetcake..

this is the first time a girl make me not in my own pace

to whom it may concern..

i totally honest being friend with u..

can't hope anything more..

from the way u react...

i think i wanna take a step back..

from fallin deeper for u..

or actually i am confused..

can't define this feeling though..

i remembered when the first conversation we had:

'hey, awak ni cantik la'

i remembered the first thing i said to you..

haha.. feeling totally freak-ish rite now..

i dun want to scare u..

tapi juz being thoughtfull and love to share..

cool kan??

the good thing is..

i remebered

kan3...

and and..

the picture we took maser jamuan raya..

i love it..

...........................

but something worries me..

this statement :

'ala, arep joe ni memang nak sumer pompuan cantik jadi awek dier'

or this :

'arep joe leh buat kawan jer'

or this:

'arep joe jadi bf?? kelakarlah bunyiknyer'

i may be outspoken..

i may be softy [euww, is that a word??]

but i have heart..

i have feelings

and i am a man..

actually it breaks my heart a lot..

but i think i can manage it properly..

haha

i think i am in love..

and i like this feeling..

doesn't feel like this since the last breakup..

...................................................

tadi my bff ader tesebut kat sweetcakes;

'arif is so in love with u rite now'

but sweetcakes kate:

'ish tak nak argh'

its too early, my dear bff

i want to get to know her more

i want to make her ease with ma style

i want to get my feelings rite..

and i want her to slowly digest for what i am

thus,

this silly fella

wants to seek forgiveness

sorry milady!!

i hope we can be best frens..

and let time decide

what are we going to be??

with full honest and full of love...

-arif johari-

..............................

SUPER WHORE-IBBLE STORY

2008-11-19T11:17:00.000-08:00

today's dissection hall topic : DORSUM OF THE FOOT.
what happen??
we discover it ourselve..
yada3...
and wallah!! we finished it properly and we saw those arch-y thingy ( venous arch rite??)
and those tendons..
and then...
we gathered ( we-know-who)
and then i caught the news..
some whore labelled form 5 as transvestite or kampung word 'pondan' is it??
(the latest issue tomorrow key)...
but whatever it is, gurl..
u r so kampung..
we don't use the word pondan..
pondan are so murah like u
pondan are so not us..
and pondan is a rude word
and u know u are the pondan...
duh ms. hunchback
u fake ur height..
with what??
FILTHY WEDGES!!
not heels rite..
because ur so fat..
if u use heels..
it will eventually break..
pity whore..
wanna have publicity??
cheap one??
waaaa.. pity u..
u come to realise that u r so pasar malam..
omg!!
dun tell me u use fake bags??
owh u did!!!
pity u...
u think u spits venom??
no!!
u juz spill the oil into the fire..
and get ready to be burnt..
after that..
u'll know how it feels to be HOT..
very hot
resist it..
becareful...
we are watching!!

when we are still here in India

2008-11-05T08:14:00.000-08:00

10 0ctober..

11 October... still no writing and updates....

no gossip and freak stuffs..

just lately i'm into pixels understanding...

i'm into 'pose' and 'SNap' sign language..

but what the fuck..

here i am ..

nowhere but india...

love india and india loves me..(??)

even now i start to love pashmina shawl detailed with broochy...

haha.. mind u, it is cold here..

F** cold..

in the mean time..

i made some policies and try to be as different from i am before..

i know.. i know i'm still form 1

hehe...

but i try to be cool bout it though..

haha.. very interesting..

so what policy should i make..

for whom my policies is impied on

and for what this is all about...

1. i will not be a permeable as i am before. so i am taking the step back..

2. i want to think bout my own love life and start to enjoy my love life as i am being mistreated to certain extend that when i say i love u it is meaningless and gurls take it like some sort of joke.. hehe..

3. other ppl's life?? y should i care much. it doesnt meant i didn't care but to some extent (thanks rashid for reminding me)... anyway i have my own drama and i have my own movie.. in this movie i am the main cast and not the side cast...

4. and other bounds and regulations that cannot be mentioned to the public because of the sensitivity issues and basically can hurt someone's feeling..

i am stating this point for my own good.

and i'm taking all the responsibilty for what i am doing.

in the other hand.. i'm free to do anything..

and this is what i do in india so far

parky fiesta

be as NORMAL as i can..

RM 1500.. fuckin unresonable...

2008-09-26T06:00:00.000-07:00

the title bears it all..

I HATE FUCKIN MSU..

FIRST I'M STUCKED WITH INDIA

SECOND I'M STUCKED WITH LEECHES LIKE MSU ..

NOW I'M GETTIN PISS OFF

IF YOU TELL ME EARLIER,

I CAN GAIN RM1500, IN FACT MORE.

HAPPY FUCKIN RAYA..

WHORE AND BITCHES!!

2008-09-17T01:39:00.000-07:00

purr-fectly happy

2008-09-14T22:17:00.000-07:00

know what??
i'm happy
purr-fectly happy
i have my sweet day..
after reading one article..
and its all about MOI..
eventough it is bad very BAD..
OUCh!! i'm torn apart
so kids .. dun ever mess up with people ..
they have emotions..
what i can say..
OUCh!!!!
haha.. i'm not questioning who u are..
but what u did to me
dun u feel it is all plastic..
alas... we are all plastics for crying out loud!!!
ur love for fashion.. wow i'm proud of you..
can't deny that.. [applause]
so u are BCBG [be couture be goddess]
so dun worry..
i lost my frens [hands down]
haha..
and u didn't
and ppl love u.. [isn't it obvious]
ppl hate me..
so what??
u wanna tell everyone??
u wanna make an army against me??
HATE ARIF.. HE IS PLASTIC..
go on!!
at least i didn't curse u
so u be who u are ..
and i'll be who i am..
sounds simple yet practical..
okie!!
*smile*
so i guess u better say :

ADaKah BLog INi Satu kEpuRa-PUraan AtAupun Hanya PAndangAn Yang tulUS IKhlas?

2008-09-14T09:41:00.001-07:00

saya membaca dan saya juga menulis blog..

saya punya pembaca saya sendiri ..

tetapi adakah kita penulis blog ini hanya menulis untuk memberi apa yang pembaca kita mahu??

kalo mahu cerita panas kita tulis..

kalo tidak mahu.. pandangan tentang apa pun boleh asalkan memuaskan hati pembaca gitu??

saya melihat blog adalah satu media yang sememangnya menyuarakan pendapat tetapi kenapa ia perlu ditentang??

cakap sahaja pasal blog .. ada sahaja yang menuduh yang bukan-bukan..

jikalau bagi saya.. sememangnya kita tiada kuasa untuk menyuarakan pendapat kita

konsep freedom of speech masih lagi boleh dipertikai..

adakah sememangnya kita bebas bersuara??

adakah dengan penerbitan surat khabar SUARA KEADILAN.. ROKET menunjukkan kita sudah boleh berbual bebas..

mereka masih lagi dikawal..

sememangnya kita bukan AMERIKA..

kita tidak boleh bersuara lantang..

semuanya perlu ada lesen and permit..

kita tidak boleh berkata apa-apa..

yang berhak hanya pucuk pimpinan..

itupun sudah bertelagah satu-dua..

itupun sudah menyebabkan negara huru-hara..

betapa saya percaya .. negara majmuk merupakan negara yang paling senstif..

seperti MALAYSIA..

sedikit perkataan .. ada sahaja yang terguris .. ada sahaja yang berkelahi..

sememangnya .. kita tidak mahu kejadian ITU berulang..

tetapi setakat mana kuasa kita untuk menutup suara-suara kecil..

yang berbisik kepada kita ..

yang mempengaruhi kita..

untuk bertelagah dan bermusuh-musuhan...

bertikam lidah .. menikam teman di belakang.. memuji teman di hadapan..

ini senario hari ini..

jikalau saya, rakyat yang haknya sekecil semut ini masih lagi risau...

apatah lagi yang lain..

saya risau akan masa depan yang tidak menentu..

saya risau saya gelap tanpa bantuan..

saya risau saya bakal kesusahan..

saya risau saya bakal ditindas..

apa pun saya , rakyat ini berharap agar MALAYSIA boleh kembali aman..

dan ingatlah

JANGAN GILA KUASA nanti KITA BINASA

JANGAN GILA PANGKAT nanti KITA MEREMPAT

JANGAN GILA JAWATAN nanti KITA KETINGGALAN

dan suara -suara kami hanya berbisik melalui blog dan media..

kerana kami sudah kehilangan hak bersuara..

kami kehilangan tempat untuk menyuarakan pendapat..

jadi kami adalah suara-suara kecil..

yang menyeru agar kita kembali aman

kembali maju tanpa sebarang gangguan.

kita merdeka tanpa dikongkong pemikiran..

sekian

The POint wherE i ReAlise ThaT i am middle finger

2008-09-05T22:37:00.000-07:00

the title bears it all eh~ yup.. in fact rite now i am being totally negative about me .. especially what i see in front of the mirror where i'm standing .. i totally hate it.. can't think much though.. in past, i pleased my self by making me the laughing stock of eveyone.. but why?? because i freakin lonely.. i am totally a mess of myself.. now is still the samey me ... nothing change eventough i through god knows what experiences... embarassment and freakin humiliation.. some people aren't lucky enough to survive but me , i think i'm lucky.. god knows how i feel when live in masks and everything.. simply realise that i am living on my own fantasies..

so what i think rite now is to run.. i gave up for any consequences .. even being a doctor is not my choice .. there i said it.. i think i did not deserve anything.. fuck!! i hate when i said it.. in this very holy month .. i want to call it the truth month.. i dare to speak what is utterly hanging on my mind.. to make it crystal clear.. and feel like i belong here in community again..

now .. i need ur hand to help.. can u ~

suKa Duka firSt RamAdhan

2008-09-01T11:16:00.000-07:00

First day of Ramadhan..

still tak tau nak wat per...
men'stone'kan diri.. [stone = bosan].. rasa mcm bulan posa ni la kan tue la masa yang paling lambat berjalan.

story 1

i came back from pasar keramat and then nak tido la kejap kan.. i mean maser tue baru pukul baper jer.. pukul 10.00 pagi kalo tak silap la.. n then naik atas pastu baca novel geek high n then terus tido.. nak dipendekkan cerita.. lepas tue my mum panggil la kan.. i thought suruh sembahyang zohor ke per.. coz i raser lamer giler tido n mcam dah berjam-jam lamanya

rupanya baru pukul 11.00pg .. rasa cam masa lambat gila habis and then petang lak sebelum bukak posa tue baring la kejap n tgk tv sambil tggu bukak posa.. rasa cam sumer lambat .. sama gak macam rini.. ingat pusing2 kat carrefour cam lama gler tapi sebenarnya kejap jer..

p/s : mungkin sebab lapar kowt... hik3

story 2

tyme bukak posa the first sure the besh kan.. tapi disebabkan hujan dan kemalasan nak pergi bazar, so makan je la aper yang ader kat rumah.. tapi still sedap.. [gambar tak dapek nak ambil coz sumer serbu macam kebuluran].. n then at one point sumer orang cam dah habis makan tau cumer tinggal i sorang.. serius i melantak macam nak lebam perut i ni.. wahaha .. so nak dijadikan cerita.. my perut still lagi nak makan gulai tempoyak ikan jenahak yang pergh.. sedap giler...n then my adik mula berkata 'abang, jangan tambah nasi nanti...' maser dier kater nanti tue i terus jawab ... maka?? ... pastu kitorunk ader perbalahan... ye la masalahnyer gulai tue macam sedap giler..saper yang tak nak makan kan.. ish3 tolak rezeki pula... lepas tue aku pown makan dengan penuh lazat ... yang paling besh ialah karipap sardin mak aku yang paling ori and yang paling besh!! nyum... tapi sedih gak raser maser makan tue .. lepas ni tak der nyer leh jamah bende2 selama 5 tahun. sob3..

story 3

maser tue trawikh n then .. ader la mamat taman nie semayunk la sekali kan.. dah kater beribadat tue.. beribadat la kan.. ni boleh ker maser sujud dorunk dok gelak2 cam fuck...

n then dengan semangatnyer saya menegor.. bang, tak nak semayang keluar la.. betol la per yang aku cakap kan.. pastu dier kater aku kurang ajar .. karang dalam bulan posa yang tak der setan aku lak jadi setan karang ... maner tak howtnyer dier dok kater aku x berbudi bahasa.. yang dier tue dah la tua bangka , boleh lagi gelak2 tyme sujud.. ni nak kene ajar nie.. mlm ni sure jumpa dorunk lagi.. dengar kate dari gosip2 mengatakan dorunk nak cabar main mercun.. ya Allah bapak tak matured giler.. dalam kereta aku maki hamun budak tue... pastu dorunk ajak geng dorunk plak masuk cmpur .. dan ura2 dalam taman mengatakan... ini adalh pergaduhan yang paling besh .. haha..nanti citer ni i sambung key..

p/s : selamat berposa n selamt bersahur

HoW We MALAysIan CelEbrateS MerDekA..

2008-08-31T05:29:00.000-07:00

merdeka in the sense of shopping spree!!!

this is what happen around the heart of Malaysia, Kuala Lumpur..

It is MERDEKA SALE!!!

from 20 - 70 percent..

ppl can't stop searching the things they need..

come one.. today is merdeka day!!

have something rather to waste money fighting over a bag..

for instance..

story one..

my sister dah beli satu kasut ni n then dier beratur nak bayar la kan.. tetibe ader satu makcik tua pakai baju kurung warna ungu yang fuck giler buruk potong line my sis ni.. n then we all buat bunyik .. ntah makcik tue tetibe menopause ke aper ker.. tetiber jer emo kater 'BERATURLA!!'

fuck giler makcik tue.. dier yang potong line .. dier lak yang emo lelebih.. n then kitorunk juz tak layn n then juz amik balik line kitorunk.. makcik tue pandang slack jer.. nak jer aku jerit..hey makcik , tak reti beratur ker.. nasib baik btn mengajar untuk bersopan dan menjadi warganegara yang baik.. kalo tidak.. hari ni memang nasib tak baik la for that old fuckin lady...hehe...

story two..

maser tue tgh jalan nak pergi beli kasut n then i nampak la ader 3 girls ni..

yang penting dorunk memang kampung giler..

mcam tak pernah masuk shoppin complex..

dengan bwak beg yang triple LY [last years last years last years]

memang kampung la..

dengan shade yang OMG ternampak ke'fake' an nyer..

berjalan bising2 .. mcm shoppin complex tue pasar ikan tempat dorunk lepak..

pe lagi.. dengan mandat yang diberikan..lalu aku berkata dengan selambanya..

'glam kampung'

n then mereka sedar n malu sendiri..

em.. begitula bagaikan babi masuk sepang...

story tiga...

story ni berlaku maser aku nak kuar nak balik..

n then kan kat beauty arcade yang jual perfume and makeups kan penuh dengan 'akak'

so.. ader satu kejadian ni...

ader customer cam terlanggar the exbhition of moschino punyer perfume..

n then 'akak' tue menjerit..

kecoh satu sogo..

kalo suara pompuan tak per la gak..ni campur2..

memang fuck giler...

memang besh giler..

dah la tue ... bawak handbag guess la tue..

memang tak tahan..

nama pulak sofy..

euwwww...

haha.. so ini adalah sedikit gambaran di sogo sebentar tadi

whEn I WAs A BabY

2008-08-31T05:18:00.001-07:00

i feel like a new born baby..

i dun know i was so damn cute..

feedbacks!!

haha

my smile rocks!!

i love when i was baby..

wish i can turn the tyme around

p/s : jumpa gambar ni maser tgh tgk2 gambar lamer kat store..

huhu...

em.. feelings ABout??

2008-08-30T10:16:00.000-07:00

em.. talkin bout today 31st August??
51th bitrthday of Malaysia..

em... achievement wise of Malaysia??
we are definitely slow and steady

em.. feelings about 2009 budget??
relief for Malaysians but it sucks for smokers
p/s : i'm not a smoker..i'm clean..

em.. feelings about permatang pauh??
dun know dun care..
hope DSAI enjoying his sweet victory

em..feelings about the nation??
proud of being malay in Malaysia

em.. feelings bout youth nowadays??
sorts of feelings.. confusion baby!!
history wise.. we sucks man!!
enjoy wise.. we overruled
social wise.. we give the negative effects..
for me .. i'm okay...
i'm bored and blur..
nothing much but GOSSIPS and SCANDALS.

em.. feelings about affairs and sex scandals..
great story to be read..
1. saiful bukhari case
2. the BPBW actress n royalty
3. so much more...
and the change of orientation of youth nowadays..
FACT : women love beauty 'boys'..

em..feelings bout Ramadhan..
mula2 ... lah kene lapar balik...
and then..
posa romadhon

!! wajib and banyak berkat!!
Alhamdulillah
hehe..
p/s : perkara ini biasa berlaku.. jangan tunjuk alim la weyh...

em.. feelings bout me??
i love my self

i cannot love u because i already did love my self..
no rooms for u baby??
be my kekasih gelap??
can!!
juz register first okey..
hehe..
its open to any GENDER okey!!

em.. any ucapan??
1. SELAMAT HARI JADI KE-51 UNTUK MALAYSIA
2. SELAMAT BERPUASA PADA 1 SEPTEMBER 2008
3. SELAMAT MELANJUTKAN PELAJARAN KE LUAR NEGARA
4. SAYA SAYANG KAMU SEMUA
5. KITA ADALAH KOMUNITI BULAT
6. JANGAN LUPA MAAFKAN SAYA
7. NANTIKAN HADIAH SAYA
8. BERATUR JANGAN BEREBUT
9. FAHAM SUMER SEKALI --> INTONASI JURULATIH BTN

p/s : love u all very the much

-arif joe knork shnork-
-2008-

DiVeRsIon Of HopeS And DreaMS

2008-08-30T09:42:00.000-07:00

i must say that I have no power to control my own future. But is seems obvious to see some people have their own strength to change what they are planned to be. Like this one guy, I must say he is very lucky plus intelligent plus determined. Enough said he knows what to do next. Tell u clearly he is very popular and he has the factor to be boyfren material. Haha.. he can be very ease. What I can summarize on a glance that he is vert silent but he has no junks ideas. He is very solid on his opinion. Fact wise, he loves logistics and yet he is kinda childish..hehe..
so I hope he can go way up high and FINALLY found the things that he loves to do.. or else he can easily change his course..
I dun know maybe ambik law kowt..
Hahaha.. the next politician .
SO FROM RUSIA TO LONDON WITH VISION!!

FROM STHETOSCOPE TO MAP DRAWER
HOLY!!

p/s : this is a compliment not a G statement like AbbY
anyone 'intrested' esp girls can always give feedback

12.25 am .. whEn FinGo STarT TyPo

2008-08-24T09:03:00.000-07:00

being a human myself and u guys always lingering dengan perkataan love..
but how do this word stand?
it is so tough until somesay we can buy anything but not love..
so what do you think guys??
i mean i dun not understand the truth that some people plays with the word love..

love and like.. are this words on the same floor.
i mean u can like someone but u are not potentially love someone..
isn't it weird??
another great debate is between love versus caring...
doesn't it sound so samey??
duh..

so , why does people put double standard on love..
if u said i love u , is like saying i'm going to marry u..yada.. yada.. yada..

em.. i notice one of the stigma on our community is u have to commit what are u saying..
i mean if u say i love ......[fill in the blanks] samey to i will take care of ..... for the rest of my life...
at one point is good.. but in the other point of view..
euww.. gross.. to commited...

em i am not implying this to anyone but what i think is to actually define what lies beneath ur heart..
i mean what u do next .. is to think wisely before u take any action..

experience wise : i've been constantly reminded that i have to do whats best for me not to please anyone else..

but.. the thing is.. we actually respond to please somebody''s heart and let them feel great and satisfied..

i mean like me.. truthfully i dun want to be a doctor.. i want to be in the entertainment business.. to be a singer.. and also at the same time be a lawyer..

but.. it is all written by Allah, i'm going to continue my studies in health professionaire..
but it's okay...

em... when talking bout love.. i mean i am very quick to fall for someone.. but i always take a step back for what i did.. physical wise .. i mean i'm tortured inside.. i mean who wants to be big and fat like me... duh!!

haha.. what i think the besh is to be myself.. one friend say... 'Arif, kalo ko kurus tapi ko tak happy tak guner jugak'..

thanks to S, i an very happy for my size.. for now..

seriously i am jealous typo... basically i hate to lose or i'm saying that i am losing coz i dun want to be 'WHATEVER MAJOR LOSER' --> COURTESY OF CAMP ROCK 2008

i mean i've been always the lil devil on somebody's fight.. coz i think i want to know the both story...
haha serious indeed ...

em.. i am a serious wreck person.. who loves to joke bout ppls life but life sucks ...

haha.. so i take another option and try to be smart.. but not smart enough...

haha.. so i'm off to my secret hiding place and start to write something..

haha.. so i'm off now to coffee.. it's gettin late..

so .. coffee anyone??

DoctOrs , aNd What LieS BeyoNd it

2008-08-17T05:25:00.000-07:00

thinking back few years before i stand up to be a doctor..
what will i be if i did not be a doctor..
now.. it is sort of confusion..
will i stand a chance to be a doctor..
i failed to be as gruelling hardworking student as U
i failed to attend classes as much as possible..
i just failed on this hard process during my foundation years..

but i realise now that i really need a serious personality training...
how can i achieve the vision and mission to be what i born for..

to be a doctor i wanna take care of the sacred oath that is

to save people's life...

but alas.. the surroundings does care...

that's why i need a hand ...

a hand that can show me the way how to live it and how to be it...

as i secured my vows , we secured people's life thus we secured human civilisation thus we secured the harmony in our country..

so .. i'm taking this chances to be in health profession as i believe in the importance of saving human lives and what human can potentially do for the better future..

maybe i am the one who save another 'einstein' version and thus we can have a better future and earth is better place to live..

hehe

The MakINg Of MUmmY's B'day PreSEnt

2008-08-13T06:12:00.000-07:00

day : thursday
mission : present for my mum..
budget : RM (can't tell)

i thought that day was very sunny .. and ceria like me.. tapi hujan..

so i continue my mission at one utama..

hmm.. so arrived there.. isi perot dulu..

so pergi carls jr.

eat there.. the burger was so big and so F delicious..

tak caya.. look at this

hoho... so me and my fren haekal.. yang makan mcm orang nak muntah..

p/s : i amik set small tapi haekal amik set large.. sori dude

pastu pergi cari hadiah..

dier pergi beli for his ehem2...

i plak pg cari for my beloved mama

so.. dah dapat adiah tue..

so pergi la kedai balut hadiah..

fuh.. bukan main terer makcik kedai tue pusing2 reben..

kene belajar tuh...

sexy giler cara makcik tue buat .. kalah jaylo..

haha...

so.. after that dengan penatnya ..

balik kat umah..

tapi sebelom tue ader satu poster kat kl sentral..

sempat lagi buat star pose..

biasaq la...

haha.. tu dia the making of mummy's b'day present

I AM ARIF JOHARI.

morality.

this is story 2011

is it too much?

time change. but i didnt

tamak. it eats you like hell

hear this!

COMPLIMENT COMPLEX :P

Day 6 and counting.

Amiga mia

count what u eat!!!

i am now officially obsessed

bulat boleh berputar tahu?

R u a chesspiece?

SINGLES DILEMMA~

superficial

Dreams and act to accomplish it..

Haih

Yes.. I cry

The thing about shoppin

Ali.. Anakku yang hitam

perihal senyum

masalah.problemas!

SAYANG ITU MAKSUDNYA....

sebelas hb sebelas thn dua ribu sembilan.

its smooshy november!

vijaya.bodoh

adik aku punya birthday.

bodoh.sengal.

SENIOR.AKU.JUNIOR

WHO DO U ADMIRE??

RAYA BAGI AKU DIA DAN MEREKA...

AFTER HALF MONTH OF PUASA AND TARAWIKH

Aku tunduk pada-MU

SAYA TIDAK BERMIMPI~

LIFE IS A HIGHWAY~ I'M ON THAT ROAD

HE WALKED AWAY~ JUST LIKE SNAP!!

ARIGATO GOZAIMASU~

LIFE... IT FREAKS ME OUT!!

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE ME!!

CHRIS CROCKER EATS ROTI KAYA??

KUALA LUMPUR = DRUGS

SUPER BLAST WEEKEND

CONGRATZ.. ITS YOUR LUCKY DAY..

PESANAN LEMAN KEPADA SENAH

HIDONK..

THE RACE...

PASAR MALAM : AKU RINDU.

U ARE GETTIN OLDER BY ONE YEAR, ABDUL FATAH!!

selamat ulang tahun sayang

that's it!!!

sedih la~

I Am FrEaKIn HOt!!!!

surat untuk ayah dan ibu~

Rub-ish story

happiness - doin nothin but VICTORIA SECRET

Nek Tik telah pergi ~ AL-FATIHAH

friday nite.. me.. and the other boleyn girl.. and sum up my weekdays

13 JAN 2009 = BAD FENG SHUI

aprons up!!!

eye cry

ppl!!! dun just grow wrinkles .. mentally matured plzzz

super 'alcohol' activity

teardrops

shit~!!

used = trashed

broken

Barista adventure

Love = Arif ?? weird formulae

SUPER WHORE-IBBLE STORY

when we are still here in India

RM 1500.. fuckin unresonable...

purr-fectly happy

ADaKah BLog INi Satu kEpuRa-PUraan AtAupun Hanya PAndangAn Yang tulUS IKhlas?

The POint wherE i ReAlise ThaT i am *middle finger*

suKa Duka firSt RamAdhan

HoW We MALAysIan CelEbrateS MerDekA..

whEn I WAs A BabY

em.. feelings ABout??

DiVeRsIon Of HopeS And DreaMS

The POint wherE i ReAlise ThaT i am middle finger